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Dude, I have barrowed money I couldn't pay back and had times where I wouldn't have survived without a food pantry. I know whats going through your head, "I'm a man and at my age I should..." As hard as it is give up those thoughts, at our age it has to be done. Not that I'm saying give up the drive brother. Never give up the drive. You got people who truly have love and or respect for you, and that is something most men do not get. I mean scroll around, you have created a true (I'm loath to use the phrase) "Safe Space", one that isn't an echo chamber. I use to snarl at "Play Nice" but now I see it is there to get me to think rather than take the easy route and go Ad hominem on a fool for willfully misinterpreting me or using definitional retreats. Look at that shit, two paragraphs to say don't beat yourself up, shit happens, you have accomplishments to be proud of and people who care for you.

Like I want to go back to bed for the rest of the year.

Hugs.

I feel like I need someone to hold me and tell me I'm pretty or whatever. I guess I'm just seeking attention tied with affection.

I feel like I just definitively was diagnosed with sleep apnea. I feel afraid. I don't want to be sick. I don't want to feel like I can't stay awake for more than a few hours at a time I also feel like the doctor said yea I probably have a sleep apnea/narcolepsy combo but because my oxygen while sleeping is 81 percent he wasn't focused on narcolepsy the only reason he talked about narcolepsy was because I asked him why I only had 8 percent of REM sleep, normal people get 25 percent, that and the sleep doctor wrote it in the report that narcolepsy was a possibility but I need a daytime nap study The doctor said, because I told him I felt like I only had moments of lucidity, like being alert while awake, otherwise I feel like a zombie. He said, Oh yea, you're only getting superficial sleep and you're brain is deprived of oxygen.. Yea you probably do feel terrible. All the years I felt like shit, I never suspected sleep apnea because I don't really snore so I hope that the surgery did improve my apnea..I don't want to be like this.

Damn I am sorry Troy:(

It's sad that with all the anti-bullying campaigns there are out there, bad guys are the coolest characters on TV, good guys are wishy washy morons and grownups are non-authoritative space holders. Vigilante characters are the only ones allowed to be cool, smart and powerful. And the system wonders why kids are confused about what makes a good, responsible authority figure.