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I suppose I see your situation a bit differently.
To my eyes, it appears like the past has stepped in to show you that the past is really in the past and it is definitely time to move forward and not continue to hold on to those things that you believed shaped who you became. I would take this as a sign to reinvent yourself.
We all have past incidents that make us feel frail and in some cases, unloved or unwanted, but that does not have to be your future.
You, knowing how I am now, would probably never believe my entire past. People hear parts of it and say how untrue it sounds because they know the current me. I took the initiative to reinvent myself when the opportunity presented itself because, yes, I was so very tired of crying. I moved forward and only peek back to make sure I don't repeat the past.