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Fuck. Totally forgot The Little Mermaid drops tomorrow. Totally forgot I told Ru and I would take her. tickets acquired. Check. email sent to teacher - check. Call made to attendance- check. Bring on the mer tails and Princess shit. only for my daughter ❤️ lol

Keegan passing by: ”oh - he is … cute.” me: Nope- to old for you! Nope with a bucket of fucking nope. Funny- Ian looks a lot like his ex boyfriend lol

Can I haz plz!?

I see you have milk or cereal

*let me do it for yooouuuuu

Koshka the food ninja. He shows up out of nowhere when we're eating. He demands a sample of the food. If he doesn't like what we're eating, he looks offended, and demands additional samples and continues to be offended we're eating something he doesn't like. He will also grab food from my hand and run off with it.

This is Buddy. One of two cats that I have. This little guy… When I’m home, sitting at the table eating dinner… Buddy walks by, behind me, on the floor. He jumps up on the counter. Then he jumps up on top of the fridge(which is next to the dinner table). He walks from one side of the fridge to the other… Looks down at me, thinking he’s all slick & sly. Then he does a Bonzai drop onto the table, right in front of my plate. Brazen little rascal.

When Boaz isn’t fighting me for my food, he is staring me down, hoping that I will put it aside and forget that it exists. Show me pictures of the animals that stare you down while you eat.

This was my birthday spread this year. Totally worth it.

is lovely and I am glad she’s here

My current thoughts are as follows: • Should I wear my wig or go bald (I’ll probably wear the wig lol) • The dress I have is perfect • Despite any falling outs I’ve had with members in the past… I’m kinda over it (being early stage terminal gives you a lot of different perspectives) and glad to be posting here again and I’m glad to see other people posting here again. • I do wish the circumstances for people coming back were better. • I hope everyone is doing as ok as they can be right now. 🫂

I was just cat sitting then. I own the cats now. They live with me. My sister got a gigantic dog.

I'm thinking about semi formal goth attire and how that relates to my body?

At the moment - my Kona dog PJs. Yes I am now one of those people. I own pjs with my dogs face all over them. They were a gift from my husband. At least I didn’t make her wear pjs with pictures of me lol. Also super comfy. And well I work in socially acceptable PJs. Pjs are life lol

Valkyrie is just wondering what's going on

Here he is with Izzy right after they were screaming in each others face and laughing about it

I am so in love with this thread.

We have two pit mixes. Silent Bob is 11 and Bulma is about a year and a half. It doesn’t matter what I’m eating or win, but those two will sit in front of any one of us and you can just hear Sarah McLachlan‘s “Angel” in your head. They look so pathetic. But if you looked at both of these dogs, you would know that they definitely get fed.😂 both of the sphinx cats do the same thing. We had a 20 year old sphinx named Iggy, who passed away last July. Both Iggy and Boaz are rescues. The day before he died, he was still fighting us for chicken. He had no teeth and was older than dirt, but it did not stop him. I miss that fucking cat so much.

Right. Most therapists MSWs that I know, and I know a few, are worth their weight in gold but definitely don’t do it for the money. Much like nursing for the amount of work we do, the money is secondary . We do it because we genuinely give a fuck. Most people in service burn out quick and don’t last if they don’t actually care. Hell we burnout when we do care but it’s normally a slow long burn instead of “fuck this I am out”. I will say it takes the “right” therapist. And some times that is really hard to find. And when you are finally at the stage of “fuck I really need to talk to someone and work my shit out” it’s EXHAUSTING to go from person to person, telling your story over and over to find out their is no connection and fuck this shit. And on top of that have to pay for something that didn’t do shit for you. Access and cost are also a HUGE thing. As long as we have insurance to limit who we can and cannot see, how many times a year we can see them, and have it covered as a “specialty” vs preventative care (which it 100% is I don’t understand the logic at all behind that other then they are greedy bastards) it won’t change. Definitely understand the fear of the grippy sock vibes. That is always scary. In bad times it’s walking a fine line. With the right therapist that knows and understands you though, it can be talked through, other options found and crisis plans made. Is therapy great - nope. Not most of the time anyway. I’ll never forget my son coming up the stairs crying after a session when he was going through a lot of shit …and simply asking if this is the way it will always be - and my response - not always, but a lot of the time. If you’re doing it right. Looking at yourself as the common denominator of all the disappointments and shit in your life is painful. It’s hard. But it’s true. You are the common denominator and only you can change that. You also have the wonderful experience that you are also the common denominator in all your strengths, achievements and joys in life. But when I’m an episode that is tucked far away and you forget those things exist. Depression is a hell of a thing. I will be 100% honest and know there are days I have not been able to get out of bed. There are days even looking at my children I have really truly felt they would be better off without me. The dangers of living where I do and having to literally drive over the Huron multiple times on my 10 min drive to downtown, that voice in the back of my mind “is today the fucking day”. Does therapy fix that -fuck no but it does allow me the coping skills to tell that voice to shut the fuck up for a while. That is the best I can ask for right now. In this moment in time that is enough. Anyone. If you need someone to fucking talk to suicidal or not, just need some support. Please reach out. I work midnights, have 4 kids one of them special needs and run a household. I pretty much never sleep. I am always available. Always doing something, awake at all hours lol. The load is heavy to bare alone. I’m pretty non judgmental, and have active listening down to a science (it makes me a damn good nurse). Sometimes someone just fucking listening, even a stranger, helps. *nods

Skyndi Laupurr will literally knock your food out of your hand, while looking you square in the eyes.

Kona- Kona wishes for fish in her Kona dog dish.

To Bean, or not to Bean...