Suicide

[ManicQueen]

Today I found my daught's journal. In this journal were plans on how she wants to die along with a few suicide letters that, it seems, she was practising. I knew shes been depressed for a year or two but not this bad. She's been cutting herself as well. I feel apart when I started reading these pages and a picture of herself with a gun to her head.

Tomorrow I'm calling her doctor to try and figure out what we need to do. More than likey she will be admitted for inpatient therapy, which I think she desprately needs.

I just hope I'm making the right decision. My heart is beyong broken right now.

[Steven]

So sorry.

but your right, you HAVE to act on it immediately.

[Fierce Critter]

Brooke, you are absolutely making the right decision.

I really hope you all can get to the bottom of this and find a way to help her.

I'm afraid I have no firsthand knowledge with which to offer advice. As bad as my own depression is, I am not, nor have I ever been suicidal.

I'd offer to talk to her, but I am not an expert, and if she has a doctor, what good would I do? However, I do wonder if talking to someone else who has "been there" and recovered might help.

Despite talking to lots of people like friends, family, I never can seem to find anyone who really understands what I'm going through - unless I talk to a fellow depressive. When I do, the knowledge and assurance that "I'm not the only one" and "I'm suffering from something legitimate" can really, really help me.

I wonder if the same would help her. Just a thought.

[jadnifer]

I CANNOT stress this enough.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE get her help ASAP!

If she finds out that it was you that told someone about it and she gets upset with you, so be it.

She will thank you in the long run.

[Brenda Starrr]

*Hugs*

Let me know if you need to vent.

[sass_in_the_pants]

You are absolutely doing the right thing.

[Msterbeau]

^^^ What they said.

Also: Communicate... Draw on your own experiences as a teen to help give her some perspective on what's going on for her now. Let her know that this is serious shit... You're concerned.. You love her.. SHE MATTERS!!.

*Hugs*

[JaneDead]

how scary and heart breaking to know your child feels that way

i'm so sorry to hear this. i don't have any great advice to offer other than what you are already doing and what others already said about getting her help.

i can only imagine how you must feel.

[Nienna]

No matter how mad she is at you now, she will eventually realize it is because you love her. It's the right thing to do.

[Der Nister]

Today I found my daught's journal. In this journal were plans on how she wants to die along with a few suicide letters that, it seems, she was practising. I knew shes been depressed for a year or two but not this bad. She's been cutting herself as well. I feel apart when I started reading these pages and a picture of herself with a gun to her head.

Tomorrow I'm calling her doctor to try and figure out what we need to do. More than likey she will be admitted for inpatient therapy, which I think she desprately needs.

I just hope I'm making the right decision. My heart is beyong broken right now.

Brooke I hope so much that she will get better. I know I only met her once or twice but she seems like such a kind heated girl.

Much like my own child finding out something like this would tare me up.

I will pray for you both.

[Brenda Starrr]

Just please, keep us posted.

Like any other family should be, we care.

[Homicidalheathen]

Hugs. My prayers and wishes for her wellness and yours are with you.

[ManicQueen]

I've got an appt. for her this week to talk to her primary doctor about this issue. I will go with his best judgement, he is a wonderful doctor that she's been seeing since she was born and I trust him a lot.

After I found all this out the other day. We talked for a while, crying and kind of opening up. I told her about my past when I was her age and explained when I went through. I think she understood what I was talking about.

The next day she was in such a wonderful mood, something I haven't seen in years. She told me she's feeling better today. Maybe she's just telling me that because she might be afraid of inpatient therapy but I really hope she meant it. Either way, she is going to be getting some sort of help.

Thank you all for your support and advice. It really means a lot to me.

And to others that want to talk shit about me for posting this.. Fuck Off and grow up!

Again thanks everyone. I'll keep everyone updated. =)

[jadnifer]

I am very glad that you posted this. I am also glad that you were able to open up and talk to us about such a personal matter also. Sometimes it helps to have support in something that you already know is the right thing to do.

I am glad that you are also still getting her help even though she said that she is feeling better. Maybe there is something that she doesnt want to tell you, that she is ashamed of, that she doesnt want you to know. A third party that doesnt have strong ties to either one of you, is a good idea. That way, she can tell someone that doesnt have emotional ties.

I am also proud of you for getting her help. Some people could care less.

My prayers are with you during this time of need.

[ManicQueen]

I am very glad that you posted this. I am also glad that you were able to open up and talk to us about such a personal matter also. Sometimes it helps to have support in something that you already know is the right thing to do.

I am glad that you are also still getting her help even though she said that she is feeling better. Maybe there is something that she doesnt want to tell you, that she is ashamed of, that she doesnt want you to know. A third party that doesnt have strong ties to either one of you, is a good idea. That way, she can tell someone that doesnt have emotional ties.

I am also proud of you for getting her help. Some people could care less.

My prayers are with you during this time of need.

And that is the very reason why I posted it. Support from friends and just to let it all out. I don't have that here at home. Thanks hun. =)

[Der Nister]

And that is the very reason why I posted it. Support from friends and just to let it all out. I don't have that here at home. Thanks hun. =)

Anytime for any reason just let us know.

[jadnifer]

Anytime for any reason just let us know.

Thats right.

[jadnifer]

And that is the very reason why I posted it. Support from friends and just to let it all out. I don't have that here at home. Thanks hun. =)

No problem. Anytime.

[Brenda Starrr]

And to others that want to talk shit about me for posting this.. Fuck Off and grow up!

Amen, sister.

We're a family, so to speak. We care about one another, listen/read about each other's issues, and discuss. It's as simple as that. Sometimes, we have no choice but to turn to someone or someplace outside of our basic circle to gain perspective. It's almost a necessity some days. If anyone here is talking smack about those who post their feelings here, it is because they have no heart.

Can't drive a stake through something that isn't there.

We're always here for you, Brooke.

*Hugs*

[ManicQueen]

Thank's Brenda

[jadnifer]

Amen, sister.

We're a family, so to speak. We care about one another, listen/read about each other's issues, and discuss. It's as simple as that. Sometimes, we have no choice but to turn to someone or someplace outside of our basic circle to gain perspective. It's almost a necessity some days. If anyone here is talking smack about those who post their feelings here, it is because they have no heart.

Can't drive a stake through something that isn't there.

We're always here for you, Brooke.

*Hugs*

I agree with this. Very much so.

[kellygrrrrrl]

ooh Girl....

I am so very sorry to hear that your daughter is in so much pain.

I am not suprised though in the least. Kids have so much pressure anymore.....

not only REAL getting good grades, keeping out of trouble, peer pressure, home pressure...,but shit pressure as well...to be Cool, fit in, drugs, sex, etc.....

I feel real bad for these kids these days.

I can remember Oh not so long ago.....I felt that way, wrote in my journal like so.....

I think to an extent, we all go through rough times like that. Some worse than others.

I hope she see's her light soon.

Some times it takes longer than others.

You are on the right track........

It is good you caught it before it's too late.

Tell her about yourself at her age.

How hard it was for you.

Be very real with her.

It's OK to feel this way from time to time, but her coping skills need to be worked on.

She needs a different out than that.

My bro was a cutter, but after the fact, admitted it was for attention that he wasn't getting.....

I do not have kids, so it can be hard for me to offer my advice on a realistic level.

for that I apologize if I come off not knowing what the hell I am talking about.

I hope that everything falls into place.

[Anathema]

i'd be open with her about it very tactful. if you let her know that you read her journal she may close up on you. i know when i was a kid and that happened to me (the reading of the journal) i just shut up and stopped talking period. privacy is big with kids. i do agree that you should find a way to get her some help or at least someone to talk to who she can trust that you know will give her good advice and act as a listneing tool which she is probably in great need of. kids however most of the time are less likely to be as open and trusting with someone who is a parent hence why i say someone they trust and can relate to on some level that they don't see as an athoriy figure.

[Draco1958]

I feel for you MQ. I went thru something like this with my niece last summer. Fortunately she knew she could talk to me and we got things worked out. Turned out she is Bi-Polar and is now on meds. Her outlook has changed plus finding someone to talk to helped. You are doing the right thing, getting her help plus opening up to her. This way she'll know you understand more than she realizes and this will help her to be able to approach you to talk. I wish you both the best. Stay strong.