Poem

[ValleyOfMisery]

END MY LIFE ….

There’s a little story to tell

Of how my life became hell

While learning how to stand up right

A brother of mine was fighting for his life

Not knowing the reality around me

I thought that that is the way to be

By the time that my mind has matured

The first memory that I saved in my head

Was the lose of the oldest brother of mine

I say these words to Josip… with regret that I have no memory of him … and with desire to know what kind of big brother he would be….

And I looked back in search of my father

Never thought this time it would be harder

To bounce back and step in to the real life

A youngest brother of mine was borne

As the years gone by perfection was lost

Sick childe he was not able to walk

Only able to make sounds but not to talk

So I say only this now… after all that… the war was sad… but it was the happiest time of my life

Growing up with a big scare on my heart

He became the source of my light

My shining star my bright knight

Ignoring the pain in my parents eyes

I’ve never looked back and never gave up

His happiness was happiness of mine

But soon after that he gave up on life

In memory of David I write now… the words of sorrow and despair… I know you had to go … watch over this misery I have of life… dearest brother of mine…

And the pain was endless… becoming slowly the core of my heart… no one will hurt me now… no one will as much as I m going to hurt my self from now on….

At that time I was only 11 years old …

One step forward two steps back

Dancing in the devils arms tonight

It is all my fault

No regret

No turning back

Bye… bye… bye… end my life…

[torn asunder]

very sad, but well done... from what i remember, english isn't your primary language, is it? i've tried to write in german before, but i don't have a big enough vocabulary yet... (sorry if i'm remembering incorrectly, but i was thinking you live somewhere in/around europe)

anyway, nice job!

[ValleyOfMisery]

yea.. croatia is in europ.. i urse to writte on german... but since in mot in school i kida forgot most of that llanguage.

i think my english is getting better

[torn asunder]

your english is much better than my german!!

[ValleyOfMisery]

i hardly ever write in my own language..... most of the stuf is in english or spanish

(i m learning spanish btw... and i m even watchinh thoes fucked up mexican sopeoperas on tv... heheh)

[torn asunder]

i speak a little more spanish than i do german! if you wanna practice either one a bit, pm me!

[ValleyOfMisery]

hmm love to... but i still dunno how to spell on spanish... i m still learning to talke,....

[Onyx]

Sad but beautiful too.