Damn It.

[Homicidalheathen]

I guess he is right. If it doesn't get much better by tomorrow I have to go back to the hospital.

I don't want another knee operation.....needles stuck deep down in there.....tubes in my hands and arms.

My foot is blue but maybe its just because I am not using it much.......but the swelling is getting worse.

I am just very stubborn when It comes to doctors........they have been wrong and fucked up so many times I don't go unless its the last minute which has cost me a few times......

It hurt so bad yesturday I actually thought.....well.....since I can't use my leg anyway......and its causing so much pain.....why not just fucking cut it off?

But it doesn't hurt as much right now so if it gets better then I will be happy, I really want to be able to run and skate and dance again soon.

I am sick of this damn knee. Sick sick sick of it. It has given me so many problems. Why was I given this crappy body anyway?

Can I go get an exchange someplace? Like maybe, cloud 7?

[Onyx]

If your foot is blue sounds like you need to get it looked at as soon as possible. If it isn't getting circulation you could actually lose it.

[jammers]

very true i hope it all works out for ya

ill be thinking about ya

[pomba gira]

Onyx is absolutely right lovey... and the combination of less pain/blue discoloration could be a VERY bad sign. I hope you went & got checked out today... if not PLEASE go ASAP... call me when you get a chance OK?