Feast Or Famine

[Msterbeau]

Why do things go in cycles of extremes??? One month I'm hating life, seemingly cared for by no-one, no dates, no seeing my kids, job in the middle of BFE, money hassles.. and then... complete reversal.

Any theories? No.. really.

[saechalyn]

I have no idea, but the same thing happens to me. Except the date part, I never have lots of those.

[Fierce Critter]

Maybe going through really, really suck periods just makes a "normal" period seem spectacular?

I know that when I'm going through a particularly intense period of suck, the idea of a comfortable holding pattern sounds like nirvana. I yearn for normalcy at those times.

[SuZQZ]

As we have chatted on this before you know that, personally, I believe everything happens for a reason. Maybe there are extreme lows in a cycle so we can truly appreciate the highs and not take things for granted. Or, I'm just pathetically full of shit... haven't decided yet

[Homicidalheathen]

Like I said, when it rains it poors. Me too......I went through a bunch of crap the past few now things are comming together nicely.....

Maybe it really is a test to see if your strong......or to make you stronger....?

[hunhee]

I don't want any more of the lows, the lows are sometimes WAY too low. you can keep those lows, I'll take the highs from here on out. I know what you mean tho MsterBeau, seems like we get shit storms and then we get rainbows.

[freydis]

Yup.

[Shade Everdark]

Why do things go in cycles of extremes??? One month I'm hating life, seemingly cared for by no-one, no dates, no seeing my kids, job in the middle of BFE, money hassles.. and then... complete reversal.

Any theories? No.. really.

It's because you gave all the crap to me.

Thanks a lot.

[hunhee]

It's because you gave all the crap to me.

Thanks a lot.

he gave you his kids? woah! hehehe

[creatureofthenyte]

I hear ya on this one too Marc.

Although in my case, things are improving verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry slowly.

[torn asunder]

you attract to yourself that which you focus on the most - it's quite simple, really!

[saechalyn]

you attract to yourself that which you focus on the most - it's quite simple, really!

I dunno...I focus on having lots of money all the time!

[torn asunder]

I dunno...I focus on having lots of money all the time!

i'm willing to bet that you (as i do) tend to focus more on the fact that you don't have any, and want more, rather than the thought that you have an abundance of it. am i right?

[know_buddy_kares]

I feel you, I'm in a state of famine as well. And there seems to be no end in sight, soon though, hopefully, i'll get that phone call... no matter how hard I try, it always results in waiting for that one phone call... that never comes... so I lay starving... kinda feeling thrown out of the rest of life at the moment...

[saechalyn]

i'm willing to bet that you (as i do) tend to focus more on the fact that you don't have any, and want more, rather than the thought that you have an abundance of it. am i right?

hehe I dunno! I SPEND like I have an abundance but then I am left with $5 and a week till payday...oopsie

[Rayne]

I know EXACTLY .... I'm still waiting for my turnaround ... I know it's coming ... sometime ....

[Shade Everdark]

you attract to yourself that which you focus on the most - it's quite simple, really!

I know for a fact that this is not true, sir.

I spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about my failure and death. The failure part's on, I suppose, but death is taking its sweet-ass time.

[know_buddy_kares]

I know for a fact that this is not true, sir.

I spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about my failure and death. The failure part's on, I suppose, but death is taking its sweet-ass time.

I gotta agree... I never think failure, and still despite my abrasive/offensive sense of humor, i'm a very decent person and would give the shirt off my back and freeze to death if it meant keeping a friend alive, yet i get fucked over. I focus on the improvement, the slow tiresome crawling out of the pit i've been in the past 2 years, and nothing ever holds or stays stable long enough for me to get on my feet. In love, in wealth, in health, in everything. This society has failed at levels i'd never expect to have seen. And because of that, is why I have so little respect or any faith in people in general.

[Medea]

I know for a fact that this is not true, sir.

I spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about my failure and death. The failure part's on, I suppose, but death is taking its sweet-ass time.

How are you so cute and happy when I see you in person??

[Shade Everdark]

How are you so cute and happy when I see you in person??

Which is the facade and which the truth? I wish I knew; I don't think I could distinguish that anymore if I had to.

I will say even in what you call happy, there is cynicism and self-deprecation.

[torn asunder]

I know for a fact that this is not true, sir.

I spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about my failure and death. The failure part's on, I suppose, but death is taking its sweet-ass time.

i debated whether or not to do this, but i feel i must...

you ruined your own "failure" by dwelling on it so much, because you've succeeded at it, and if you succeed at something, it can't be a failure, now, can it!?

HA!! shade is successful!!!

(and btw, death knows no timeline - your end will come when it needs to - until then...

live!

[torn asunder]

Which is the facade and which the truth? I wish I knew; I don't think I could distinguish that anymore if I had to.

neither, and both...

[Scales]

I've hit thresholds of emotional pain which has created value changes. I don't have multiple personalities nor completely believe in that, but I do have values that conflict with each other due to living situations, past trauma, ect.. which has caused me a lot of pain that I can no longer come up with words to describe. I have a very strong sense of identity, but also a very conflictive one, in another words there are days where I'm attacking myself and I can't turn it off. There are times where everything falls into place, but so far all of those have went to shit, and I'm unbelievably tired of it.

On another note, a dancing thread-jack-rabbit

[Nienna]

I don't have any explanations, but I run in very similar cycles.

[Draco1958]

All I seem to see are shit storms. I don't even remember what is normal or spectacular days anymore.