A "shocking" Experience

[Hellion]

The day will come when

all negativity and pain

will soon vanish

The day will come

when waking up will

not be work

but a relief

The day will come when

past issues will be resolved

and past grudges will be

forgotten/ended/forgiven

Being able to laugh

and forget the hate

will be ectasy

For this coming week will

be the most "SHOCKING"

experience of my life

and it shall be done.

Footnote:

This is relating to the previous thread I had started a couple of days ago

its about the electro-shock therapy that will hopefully end

the shity ways I have been feeling,I have to make the call monday

and find out whats up,let alone when and if it is done unless there is another (pill free way)

that will work,and yes I admit I did do a large line of cocaine last week at the bar,from someone

I did not know,let alone it was free.unfortunately the next day I had severe headaches for a while.

fuck that shit thought it would have been ok to taste the evils of my past.

if ETC is done I do not know if I will remember anyone,where I live and who the hell I am,I just hope I forgrt the bullshit thats all.I just want to know what it was like to be able to smile,laugh,not hate,and what it was like 20 years ago when I never had these shity feelings,because this is worse than physical pain,and I can tolerate alot of physical pain,even a bleve,if anyone here knows what a bleve is,just look it up on wicipedia,its an acronym,and it was going to be the way on how I was going to be destroyed.

The ETC treatment might also change my personality,hopefully for the best.

If anyone knows what the phrase "Painting The Walls Red"means,then you might know

Unfortunately this was a problem I have had hidden for quite a long time,because I figured that no one would ever understand what its like.nough said

Unless you have had similar experiences,you will know how I have been feeling the past too many years.

[EAF (1)]

I don't know if your idea is the way to fix things...but I know I can't stop you...just please I beg you be craeful at least...make sure you trust who does it and write yourself like 20 fucking notes on who you are and where you live and shit like that just in case...

[Homicidalheathen]

Well if nothing else your pain inspired art. Your so goth.