Counseling?

[CountdownToBreakdown]

Well, guys. I think I need help on this one.

Last year me and a couple of guys I met at some football games decided to hang out before a basketball game at the school. None of us had a ride to go home then come back, so we figured we'd hang out in front of the school. No harm in that, right?

Well this guy that used to go to our school come a bit early and decided to hang with us.

Me and him had known each other for a while and were sitting around talking.

He's usually a pretty good guy.

Well I had been sick all week and was coughing really bad. He had a Gatorade and there wasn't much left so he asked if i wanted a drink to help me stop coughing. I said sure and took a few drinks, not really paying attention because I thought y taste was just bad because I was sick.

After that, I don't remember anything, but the drinks had all been spiked with 90 proof Vodka and according to my Vice Principal, some kind of drug.

I was suspended for 5 days along with my friends because we had been caught on camera drinking.

I was also put in counseling.

But after 3 meetings and my psychological evaluation, my counselor just stopped coming.

I went to the office for the meetings, but she was nowhere to be found.

So I gave up.

If a counselor doesn't even want to listen to me, who really does, right?

So I avoided alcohol on my own.

I haven't touched any since.

But I've been wanting in a way.

And I've been craving cigarettes too.

(I think because I picked up on smoking while drunk)

I can't get a counselor, I've tried, but none of them ever stick around after I tell them the shit I've been through.

I guess maybe I really want to know what to do and I just want someone to talk to.

Thanks.

<3

[Msterbeau]

Pretty shitty counselors. WTF????? Where do you live? I've seen a woman who is awesome. She's in Birmingham, though. She will listen and she will tell it like it is.. Not sure about insurance or payment options. It's worth seeing(finding) someone like her, though. If addictions or substance abuse run in your family or the people who raised you, I'd definitely recommend staying away. At least until you're older and understand fully what the implications are. (Like death, or jail...)

[CountdownToBreakdown]

Pretty shitty counselors. WTF????? Where do you live? I've seen a woman who is awesome. She's in Birmingham, though. She will listen and she will tell it like it is.. Not sure about insurance or payment options. It's worth seeing(finding) someone like her, though. If addictions or substance abuse run in your family or the people who raised you, I'd definitely recommend staying away. At least until you're older and understand fully what the implications are. (Like death, or jail...)

Yeah. I know.

I live in Kentucky.

I'm just glad I have good friends to help me.

Addictions do run in my family and I am trying to stay away for good.

I just, idk how to try and describe it.

I know people here don't mock serious matters therefore I think I can say this safely..

I've been in counseling for years now because for 8 years my older cousin "Dan" beat me.

He threw me into doors and bookcases and lockers and once locked me outside in the snow with no coat and video taped it.

I've been through a living hell and I just breakdown over it sometimes.

&& my best friend (who I talk about on my profile) is sent away until May at the moment over some trouble.

So I haven't had him here to talk to.

I think I can find some support here and such until and when I find a counselor though.

But in the area where I live, trust me, support is low and counselors don't really give a shit.

We've had some parents send their kids to counseling JUST because of their sexual preference, so you can see it's pretty sucky around here.

[OneLastInhale]

Yeah. I know.

I live in Kentucky.

I'm just glad I have good friends to help me.

Addictions do run in my family and I am trying to stay away for good.

I just, idk how to try and describe it.

I know people here don't mock serious matters therefore I think I can say this safely..

I've been in counseling for years now because for 8 years my older cousin "Dan" beat me.

He threw me into doors and bookcases and lockers and once locked me outside in the snow with no coat and video taped it.

I've been through a living hell and I just breakdown over it sometimes.

&& my best friend (who I talk about on my profile) is sent away until May at the moment over some trouble.

So I haven't had him here to talk to.

I think I can find some support here and such until and when I find a counselor though.

But in the area where I live, trust me, support is low and counselors don't really give a shit.

We've had some parents send their kids to counseling JUST because of their sexual preference, so you can see it's pretty sucky around here.

I'm one of the friends that chassy knows she can always turn to

[CountdownToBreakdown]

Of course Travvie!

<3

Thanks too, for being here.

I know you know the shit I've gone through.

&& how much I distrust guys....erm, and girls if you remember that situation.

[Msterbeau]

Ha.. I was living in Kentucky for a year. I moved back at the end of the summer, 2007. I think I have an idea what you're dealing with. Poor girl...

[CountdownToBreakdown]

Yeah. Really?

I'm from Eastern Kentucky, which makes things entirely worse.

Idk. Everyone f my friends HATE my cousin because of what he did to me.

&& I have flashbacks of it.

On top of other shit I've gone through.

But I never get to talk about it and sometimes I can't even tell my friends because I feel like someone on the outside needs to understand along with my friends.

Idk.

But thanks.

[twilight]

It is really hard to find a counselor. I never had luck with it.

[CountdownToBreakdown]

It is really hard to find a counselor. I never had luck with it.

Yeah.

The place I'm from is full of people that are kinda quick to judge and not very open minded.

[Msterbeau]

I lived about an hour south of Lexington. Out in the sticks.

[CountdownToBreakdown]

I lived about an hour south of Lexington. Out in the sticks.

Wow.

Lexington is pretty cool.

I don't go often though.

I'm stuck in Eastern Ky at the moment.

And the town I'm in, well people aren't "accepting" of differences.

[Homicidalheathen]

I went through 5 before I found one that 'got' me, cared......and actually helped.

It took me like, 20 yrs to find her........

It was worth it, don't give up. Just like with a doctor......go for 3rd.......even 7th opinions......on something important like your health. Don't settle for a hack or someone to overloaded with work they don't pay enough attention when your talking.

It is really hard to find a counselor. I never had luck with it.

[jadnifer]

Im sorry to hear that you have to endure so many horrible things.

Finding a good counselor is hard...believe me I know.

Like HH said though, keep in there. You will eventually find one that will honestly listen and sincerely try to help you.

Best of luck to you.

[littlepinkkitty]

I had a therapist in high school and all she would do is ask me when she was getting paid. When she would call me on the phone all i would hear were like a bunch of cats in the background. I stopped seeing her because i didn't like her. I thought about and realized that i could never really open up to her anyways because she made me uncomfortable. It definitely isn't easy to find a councilor or therapist. You can't just open up a phonebook and pick out a name.

FYI dgn is a great place to vent and talk to people. Everyone here is really nice and supportive. There are people here that have come from all different age groups and backgrounds and give good advice.

[Msterbeau]

I had a therapist in high school and all she would do is ask me when she was getting paid. When she would call me on the phone all i would hear were like a bunch of cats in the background. I stopped seeing her because i didn't like her. I thought about and realized that i could never really open up to her anyways because she made me uncomfortable. It definitely isn't easy to find a councilor or therapist. You can't just open up a phonebook and pick out a name.

FYI dgn is a great place to vent and talk to people. Everyone here is really nice and supportive. There are people here that have come from all different age groups and backgrounds and give good advice.

It's pretty sad how many people in the mental health care profession have no business being there, since they're clearly a bigger mess then the people they're supposed to help. I would steer clear of anyone that hasn't done their own work: ie. Hasn't gone to a therapist themselves and made an effort to understand and resolve their own issues.

[CountdownToBreakdown]

Yeah.

I've found I'm more comfortable talking to people on here.

Since I posted that I've still not found a counselor but I've been doing alright.

I have been a little depressed though lately.

Idk why though really.

It's just that I can't see my ex without crying and my current boyfriend and I are kinda distant right now.

Bleh.

[jadnifer]

Yeah.

I've found I'm more comfortable talking to people on here.

Since I posted that I've still not found a counselor but I've been doing alright.

I have been a little depressed though lately.

Idk why though really.

It's just that I can't see my ex without crying and my current boyfriend and I are kinda distant right now.

Bleh.

A lot times that's what depression is. You are really sad and you can't quite figure out why.