Nobody knows...

[SomeDanGuy]

The only item currently on my "Must do before I die list" is to take in abused/neglected big cats (ie tigers, cougars, etc).

[DarkenedCharm]

I was a boyscout

I used to perform in a Fetish Troupe here in "The Lou" as part of "Fetish Night" at The Galaxy

My last band was named "Editor's Choice, Best Metal Band 2004" by the eds of The Riverfront Times in their "Best of St. Louis" issue. (The RFT is our version of your Metro Times. They are published by The New Times, and are identical in everything except locaion-specific info.)

I used to have Bon Jovi hair in highschool. I had Dave Mustaine hair after that.

[Brenda Starrr]

Nobody knows that I beat up a boy once because he hurt my sister. I messed him up BIG time. And I didn't even get my dress dirty.

[JaneDead]

-i played baseball in gradeschool for a year, was in band for a year, was a cheerleader yet another year and played basketball.. for 2 weeks. i was a girl scout for a year i think?i dont even know. i did ballet for awhile.

-i used to talk so much in school i got in trouble all the time. and during the time i took ballet class- when i was in school and the teacher would leave the room i would get up and dance next to my desk and lean over and do my work at the same time.

-when i was about 5 or something i used to pose stiff, without smiling for pictures. i would do this standing up, or laying down. stiff, with my arms at my sides.

-i didn't actually have an imaginery friend so i had an imaginery imaginery friend and her name was unis (from the show SOAP, got that name) and she was from uranus i think. i dont know. that didnt last long i thought it was dumb. but i wished i could actually have an imaginery friend like i thought kids did. but i didn't know how to actually have one.

:blink

-clothes (more specifically sweaters and turtle necks) made me itchy so my nickname was itchy growing up. well, one of them.

-i have liked boys since i was 3 years old. my first memories are from when i was 3 years old.

-i remember things that normal people probably don't. i wish i didn't remember so much of what i do. it is annoying. i will remember what people were wearing, exact conversations, time of day/year, other things going on. for some things i have a picture perfect memory. other things i can't remember no matter how hard i try.

-i used to have images in dreams and then they would happen

-i have dreams that people die... and then people die. :tear

-my first friend died when i was in 6th grade. she had cystic fibrosis.

-i still cry/get teary eyed about my grandma dying. alot. and she died about 8 years ago. i have never been the same since then.

but i don't cry about much else anymore.

-i am really sensitive about things that a lot of people aren't. and there are probably too many to name. (examples would be making fun of friends behind their back, tree-huggin-hippy-stuff , like i said too many to name so why bother)

-i can "get inside" people's heads sometimes. i can't explain it other than that. and it is weird. but some people i can't ever do that with them.

-my aunts and uncles teased me SO much growing up. i got it from my mom's side and dad's side. i blame them for what a weird person i am now today.

[Brenda Starrr]

-i used to talk so much in school i got in trouble all the time. -i have liked boys since i was 3 years old. my first memories are from when i was 3 years old.

-i used to have images in dreams and then they would happen

-i have dreams that people die... and then people die.  :tear

-i still cry/get teary eyed about my grandma dying. alot. and she died about 8 years ago. i have never been the same since then.

but i don't cry about much else anymore.

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These things are the exact same things for me. I still have dreams and visions, and they still happen. My grandmother talks to me through my daughter. A lot.She says things that only my grandma knew.

[JaneDead]

These things are the exact same things for me. I still have dreams and visions, and they still happen. My grandmother talks to me through my daughter. A lot.She says things that only my grandma knew.

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i wish my grandmother still talked to me. :tear i don't even dream about her. i have only had about 3 dreams with her in them.

one was so bizarre i can't even describe it. but she was like in another word trying to talk to me and we could not communicate. that is pretty much all i can describe of it.

[Brenda Starrr]

Read this.

There's more, but it's just way too much to type.

[JaneDead]

oh here's one that has made people think i was nuts so i stopped telling people when it happened

i used to have these little "glitches" i guess you could say

where i felt things were not really real anymore. sort of like i was not really me or something. i can't exactly describe it when it is not happening... and i thought i could sense another dimension of sorts. this would be followed with a smell. i can't describe the smell cuz it doesnt smell like anything else, and i only smell it then. and usually some time after my life would have changed in some way.

ie. job changes, moved out of state, people dying, etc.

but seriously folks.. mentally i am all good

[Brenda Starrr]

I don't think that's ever happened to me. Just the whole seeing things before they happen is crazy. It gets to the point now where if I "see" someone die, I don't want to say anything. I finally had told my mom about my dream of grandpa dying. She didn't believe me until my dad confirmed it.

[JaneDead]

that made me cry. :( when i was pg with my son they thought he might have downs too. he was born in 95 too.

(before she went on a continuous morphine drip)-- my grandma had an illness to, and at the end of her life was on morphine drip too. :(

[Brenda Starrr]

Do you ever wonder why we get along so well?

*hugs*

[JaneDead]

the first time i "woke up crying" to someone dying was my great grandma when i was 13.

alot of times though the people who die in my dreams are NOT the people that actually die

for example the night i had a dream my dad's girlfriend died, his roommate really died.

the night i dreamt i think it was my grandma died? really my friends grandpa died.

[JaneDead]

Do you ever wonder why we get along so well?

*hugs*

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actually, i never wondered. i just always had a feeling. =)

[Brenda Starrr]

You are most definitely one of the people I have to meet when I come up.

[JaneDead]

fo shizzle

[Brenda Starrr]

Nobody knows just how excited I am to come to Detroit.

[JaneDead]

people don't seem to know that once you are in my head/heart you stay there forever. even if i never see you again- if you ever meant something to me you always will and i will think about you all the time. maybe not daily but quite often enough.

[JaneDead]

ok another weird one about me

nobody knows (except actually angel beast-which a bunch of you know- and some others from "another message board" ) that i have been able to "heal" myself before.

by that i mean this:

i was laying in bed one night, in a lot of pain. it would not go away, nothing would make it go away that i tried - it was what i refer to as one of my "flare ups"

so i am laying there and i start focusing and i cleared my mind. which i had NEVER done before. i am always thinking a million things. and i sort of see this watery/fluid wave ... and color. purple and sometimes green. as i am seeing this watery flow of "energy" or something and then seeing the colors i feel my pain leave my body. i have only been able to do this twice and wish i could figure out how i did it and do it again.

and once again folks... i am not mental. i am actually quite sane.

thought i would share that one cuz really people DON'T know that kind of stuff about me. they would NOT understand i am quite sure.

[soothsayer]

That I am a member of the Mayflower society. Only those that have ancestors that arrived from the Mayflower are a part of this. It can be traced back through my grandfather's bloodline.

[Brenda Starrr]

Nobody knows that I cry over Disney commercials.

When you wish upon a star....

[Brenda Starrr]

Nobody knows that I have a 2nd degree burn scar on my left forearm, another on my left leg, and that I'm left handed.

[soothsayer]

I'm a secret agent working on a top secret mission for the CIA. :fear

[Brenda Starrr]

*kicking sooth

[pomba gira]

I look at people & know things about them sometimes. Not necessarily in person, it can be someone in a pic or on TV. I still feel really guilty 'cos my stepdad's sister died of cancer a couple years ago. And shortly before she was diagnosed I saw her and I just felt very strongly that something was wrong with her. But I convinced myself it was just that she'd lost a lot of weight in the past year & I wasn't used to seing her thin. Then like 2 months later she was diagnosed with cancer and lived less than 9 months after that. I still feel like if I'd said something maybe she could have found out in time. But what would I have said? If something like that ever happens again, though, I have promised myself I WILL say something... no matter how stupid I may sound.

I used to have flashes where I would "be" someone else. The one that recurred the most, I would suddenly be in the head & body of this Latina girl who lived in a very dark shabby apartment. She lived with someone who she loved but was very afraid of... I actually flashed in when she was having sex with him a couple times. I never knew if he actually abused her or if she was just afraid he would. This used to happen like every few months during the 5 years I lived in San Francisco, but never since I moved back to Michigan.

and I make jewelry that looks like this:

[JaneDead]

I used to have flashes where I would "be" someone else. The one that recurred the most, I would suddenly be in the head & body of this Latina girl who lived in a very dark shabby apartment. She lived with someone who she loved but was very afraid of... I actually flashed in when she was having sex with him a couple times. I never knew if he actually abused her or if she was just afraid he would. This used to happen like every few months during the 5 years I lived in San Francisco, but never since I moved back to Michigan.

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that sounds fascinating. scary but still that would be amazing to be able to do.