My Roller-Coaster of a week..

[BrnnJnSllvn]

Ok.. So for a little back story, I have never been to a doctor or anyone who told me straight out that I have depression, but I am pretty sure that I used to.. And sometimes it comes back hard...

I have always been a little afraid to tell people how I felt so I cut myself and hid my pain away under my hoodies... I haven't cut in 2 years, but at times I have to do other things to calm myself down..

This past week started out crappy... Because Monday was the 6 year anniversary of when my first girlfriend killed herself, so I was pretty depressed, but I hid it from everyone around me, and I got through.. Tuesday was the 4 year anniversary of when one of the only friends I had in high school killed himself.. I went to a really small school, and it was hard when it happened and I still think about him every so often.. I was super depressed and at times I was glad that my fiance was busy doing something else, so he didn't worry abut me...

Wednesday the week got alot better... My friend invited me to her house for the weekend, and Thursday was chaotic because I had to do laundry and clean... Then Friday came and we went to my friends house... I finally met her mom face to face, and we went to City Club to celebrate her 20th birthday!

And now that I'm home, I'm ready to go to bed and sleep... And hopefully this week doesnt have any days like Monday or Tuesday....

[~Tszura~]

Life definitely has its ups and downs, some more hard core than others. I hope you always remember that even when you're down, there's always going to be another up.

Glad you're feeling better!

Talking things out is always a good way to let out the chaos, pain, and all the other ugliness that can sometimes cloud our souls and paths in life.

I hope you have a great rest of the week, and more!!