What Are You Thinking? (cont'd)

[TronRP]

Well, the boy has already made his goals for this school year.  Now it's just a matter of keeping him on task.  I know he can do it, but he tends to immediately bail the moment he thinks things are failing.

 

Last school year, I taught him about picking up the pieces and forging ahead.  Lessons like that are timeless. 

[TronRP]

I am so happy that the nurses at Dr. Dhillon's office told us about T's Bakery on I-696 and Greenfield Road.  I am able to satisfy my cake fix at lease once a month.  And today was $2 Cupcake Tuesday. Yay 

 

[TronRP]

Ok, so now I've hit rank of "Proficient"... Apparently, I'm highly skilled at spilling my guts on a public platform. 😆

[kat (1)]

I used to think I had a real soulmate. I guess it isn't true. I really was looking forward to true love. I really, without a doubt believed that love can be real. I am too old now I guess and too weird, antisocial, annoying, emotional, and physical unappealing. I dread mirrors. If I can't stand the sight of me and the essence of me I damn sure don't expect anyone else too.

[TronRP]

1 hour ago, kat said:

I used to think I had a real soulmate. I guess it isn't true. I really was looking forward to true love. I really, without a doubt believed that love can be real. I am too old now I guess and too weird, antisocial, annoying, emotional, and physical unappealing. I dread mirrors. If I can't stand the sight of me and the essence of me I damn sure don't expect anyone else too.

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[kat (1)]

I love my kids. I am not opting out of life because of them it's not fair that they got a mental case for a mom. I'm sorry to my kids and my family.  I love them. I'm sorry for what I have done but I am so tired of this pain. I hate myself and it's not fair that anyone has to deal with me. You deserve better,  all of you deserve better than me.

[TronRP]

5 minutes ago, kat said:

I love my kids. I am not opting out of life because of them it's not fair that they got a mental case for a mom. I'm sorry to my kids and my family.  I love them. I'm sorry for what I have done but I am so tired of this pain. I hate myself and it's not fair that anyone has to deal with me. You deserve better,  all of you deserve better than me.

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Not sure if anyone has ever said this to you before, but you are not the only one who feels this way.  I've been beating myself up for believing that I have ruined several people's lives.  I've been having a really tough time of it since the first week of August.

 

I'm just thinking of things this way...Just live life for you.  Don't worry about what other people have to say because they are going to remember things the way they believe stuff went down.  Only you can make you happy.

 

Just know that you deserve life as much as the next person even if you feel you can't figure out why.  It doesn't matter.  Just be you.

 

~

[kat (1)]

5 minutes ago, TronRP said:

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Not sure if anyone has ever said this to you before, but you are not the only one who feels this way.  I've been beating myself up for believing that I have ruined several people's lives.  I've been having a really tough time of it since the first week of August.

 

I'm just thinking of things this way...Just live life for you.  Don't worry about what other people have to say because they are going to remember things the way they believe stuff went down.  Only you can make you happy.

 

Just know that you deserve life as much as the next person even if you feel you can't figure out why.  It doesn't matter.  Just be you.

 

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Thank you. I just swallowed a bottle of pills I think I'm going to go find police I'm walking 

Edited September 8, 2021 by kat

[TronRP]

1 minute ago, kat said:

Thank you. I just swallowed a bottle of pills I think I'm going to go find police I'm walking 

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Do you want me to call them and send them to your location?  Where are you right now?

[kat (1)]

5 minutes ago, TronRP said:

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Do you want me to call them and send them to your location?  Where are you right now?

I walked back home.  I was cold from the rain. I think there was like 25 in the bottle 

I don't want to be locked in a hospital.  Maybe I'll fall asleep and be ok

[TronRP]

3 minutes ago, kat said:

I walked back home.  I was cold from the rain. I think there was like 25 in the bottle 

I don't want to be locked in a hospital.  Maybe I'll fall asleep and be ok

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What did you take?

Please just call.

[TronRP]

11 minutes ago, kat said:

I walked back home.  I was cold from the rain. I think there was like 25 in the bottle 

I don't want to be locked in a hospital.  Maybe I'll fall asleep and be ok

 

6 minutes ago, TronRP said:

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What did you take?

Please just call.

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Well, you are going to have to be upset with me because if you don't call, I will send emergency to your last known location.

[kat (1)]

3 minutes ago, TronRP said:

 

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Well, you are going to have to be upset with me because if you don't call, I will send emergency to your last known location.

I'm calling. 

[TronRP]

2 minutes ago, kat said:

I'm calling. 

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Thank you

[TronRP]

@kat

Did you call?

[TronRP]

@kat

This is uncanny, the picture of you and your son, taken at his high school graduation popped up in the posted images sidebar.

Does the hospital need a contact person for you?

[kat (1)]

8 minutes ago, TronRP said:

@kat

This is uncanny, the picture of you and your son, taken at his high school graduation popped up in the posted images sidebar.

Does the hospital need a contact person for you?

I call poison control 

[TronRP]

2 minutes ago, kat said:

I call poison control 

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Poison Control?!?

What did you take?

Are you going to pass out before you get any assistance?

Do you still live at the location I know?

[kat (1)]

Just now, TronRP said:

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Poison Control?!?

What did you take?

Are you going to pass out before you get any assistance?

Do you still live at the location I know?

Oh no I'm better.  I vomited. I am getting ready to go to hospital.  

[TronRP]

1 minute ago, kat said:

Oh no I'm better.  I vomited. I am getting ready to go to hospital.  

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Oh my gosh, thank goodness. 🥰

[TronRP]

@kat

 

Please ask to speak with someone at the hospital.

 

[kat (1)]

6 minutes ago, TronRP said:

@kat

 

Please ask to speak with someone at the hospital.

 

Oh yea they are not going to let me out until I do. I'll probably have to stay a few days. 

[TronRP]

2 minutes ago, kat said:

Oh yea they are not going to let me out until I do. I'll probably have to stay a few days. 

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You are going through something you need help with handling.  There is nothing wrong with that.  Talk and let it heal your soul.

[kat (1)]

My heart and mind are broken. Everything hurts and I'm broken.  

[TronRP]

1 hour ago, kat said:

My heart and mind are broken. Everything hurts and I'm broken.  

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I'm just happy to hear from you.