One of those moments again

[DarkChylde]

Right now I have manic and bi-polar running through me, it sux. I feel that I just want to flat out be the most selfish bastard there has been ever, like fuck everyone and everything, im the only one and its all about me. I havnt been much talkative lately, feels like im just only treated like a mere tool, not a human being. Most just come to me only for advise like im some kind of granpa who sits in a rocking chair all day. I hate emotions, I wish there was a way to rid them just so I dont have to feel anything inside no more. Maybe I would feel better if i got laid, its been last winter since I ever got any, but shit if only it was that easy though, just fuck the shit out of somone, smoke a few cigarettes, raid the fridge and fall asleep. Or maybe I should start considering dating somone again? Naw fuck that, I'll prolly just end up in worse pain like the incident with my ex, I feel the desire to, but im afraid of my desires. Aight now I feel tired, im gonna fall asleep and hopefully I'll feel better again when I wake up.

[Brenda Starrr]

*hugs*

[Homicidalheathen]

Getting laid, smoking....eating....sleeping. Sounds good to me. And in that order. Oh and something to drink like Chocolate milk.

[kellygrrrrrl]

Hey, at least you know you have a heart, which alot of people do not use anymore.

You feel that way because you have feelings and you are human. "Most" people feel down and out about shit. Why wouldn't you with all the shit going on, and all of the shit we have to deal with. It is a matter of coping. How we lhave earned to cope.

Don't feel bad because you feel bad....there are reasons that you feel bad, and you need to feel validated for feeling that way. Just try to recap on things and try to find reasons for why you are feeling this way, then you can learn to cope with it and move on, and feel much better.

We all have had Horrible things happen to us. OR we have all done horrible things. Both will make you feel bad...but you can't push it inside and let it stew forever.

In any ase.....I hope you are doing ok.

[DarkChylde]

Hey, at least you know you have a heart, which alot of people do not use anymore. 

You feel that way because you have feelings and you are human.  "Most" people feel down and out about shit.  Why wouldn't you with all the shit going on, and all of the shit we have to deal with.  It is a matter of coping.  How we lhave earned to cope. 

Don't feel bad because you feel bad....there are reasons that you feel bad, and you need to feel validated for feeling that way.  Just try to recap on things and try to find reasons for why you are feeling this way, then you can learn to cope with it and move on, and feel much better. 

We all have had Horrible things happen to us.  OR we have all done horrible things.  Both will make you feel bad...but you can't push it inside and let it stew forever.

In any ase.....I hope you are doing ok. 

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Yeah im ok now, just woke up and forgot whut I was thinking/feeling last night. But yeah im also already aware of whut you stated above. My mind know whuts truly right it's just sometimes my feelings dont like to agree and its very hard to control them. This is all part of being a taurus. Of course like I said im very hi manic depressive and bi polar. These days I have been doing a very good job keeping it under control though, I havnt hurt any of my friends which is good.

[bean]

I understand the bi-polar thing, BELIEVE me...it does indeed suck.

[The_Dark]

How is this a Taurus moment?

[Paper Hearts]

Ford Taurus.

[DarkChylde]

Ford Taurus.

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Like whut he said.

[cptdeath]

Getting laid, smoking....eating....sleeping.  Sounds good to me.  And in that order.  Oh and something to drink like Chocolate milk.

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i love chocolate milk :fear

[cptdeath]

i wanna make a post asking

WHATS YOUR MENTAL ILLNESS?

some people would probably get offenend oh well

listen your emotions are valuable beyond death

I used to be whats known as a sociopath also psychodic

not having emotions is horrable and from a thing that is now humman i should be offended you would give up hummanity when i could never know it

ahh to feel even pain is great.

sociopath's have no real emotion of there own only barrow from others but never realy feel anything. like slitting your mothers neck before you brush your teeth then do some loundry and go to school like it's work and no difference do you feel.

trust me it's a horrable existance. I don't seem to be of that condition now but it's a place I came from you know. If need be it might be a short ride home some day. :fear