Real honest to goodness FEAR

[Saephyr]

:fear :fear :fear

I'm not talkin the typical horror film scare, or waking up next to your drunken morning after drinking date...no.

I mean something that has gotten you so afraid that you were either shaking or crying or maybe even paralysed with emotion !!!

It's odd what you'll read from each person but it's really interesting what would petrify one of our fellow DGN friends. :devil :woot: =( :blink :blushing

[saechalyn]

Not telling. Y'all will use it against me :fear

[ManicQueen]

Death. I've talked somewhat about this a few years ago but yeah that's my thing.

It will send me straight into a panic attack.. can't breath, heart palps, dizziness.. the whole nine yards.

[Saephyr]

Suffocation for me.

I was swimming in my uncle's pool one summer with my baby cousin David. He jumped out and rolled the pool cover on top of me while I was doing underwater laps!

If you've never been trapped under a plastic cover being inside water...just put your head in a plastic bag with water in it. I actually tried to have a paramedic friend of mine literally choke me into unconsciousness to see if it would break the fear cycle....

I still owe him a spakle job for what I did :confused

[ManicQueen]

Sounds hot

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[odims_sphere]

Poping ballons, Bags on the side of the road, little toy pop guns, large pot holes, dead animals, cars coming to close or coming up to fast.... I could go on.

It's getting a lot better now, I don't have to drive in the middle lane any more on the free way.

[ManicQueen]

Poping ballons, Bags on the side of the road, little toy pop guns, large pot holes, dead animals, cars coming to close or coming up to fast.... I could go on.

It's getting a lot better now, I don't have to drive in the middle lane any more on the free way.

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EeK.. I used to be like that. I had serious issues with driving or just being outside. I didn't want to get in an accident of any kind while in the car and get killed. *part of the death thing* I would ALWAYS drive in the middle lane.. actually I still do.

[odims_sphere]

I guess mine could be from the fear of getting killed too, I've just been conditioned for the last year that those kinds of things explode. Also here I can't just shoot a tailgater

[Killer_Bunnie]

Statues, I have a horrid fear of them, can't function at all, and have blacked out when a lawn jockey is in sight. oh and if that wasn't strange enough I can't even start a car, I will not sit in the drivers seat and I am terrified as soon as they start moving, but I'm a little better, I can sit in the passenger seat finally but the 2 things scare me to the point of tears.

[Homicidalheathen]

Getting mugged, and/or raped...drowning. Yes, the drowning one comes to mind......had a close call myself. Cutting off one's air supply makes them panick big time.

[bean]

Small spaces (elevators, narrow hallways), large crowds, public speaking.

[Steven]

Laura in danger...and yet out of my reach....

[Saephyr]

My meds enhance your dreams as well as the nightmares... like I needed that shit. I wake up trembling and sometimes crying man it's awful

[Lilith]

things that has scared me in my life was when my daughter had her stroke, when my son tried to kill himself, and when my youngest son at the age of 2-3 Sudennly appeared at the top of the ladder as i was on the roof of the house putting up christmas lights. So i suppose the death of my children scare the piss out of me but oddly i did not shut down in any of those cases, my senses actually hightened.

Death in general does not scare me for my self or other adults, the experience of death it self from what i gather is pretty peaceful

[Falstaff]

I know this is really lame and all, but I'm just going to paste from my blog...this is the last thing that scared me near shitless. Sorry for the paste, but I think I described it best here. I WILL admit...it's kind of all over the place, as I wrote it at 5am, shortly after everything happened....

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You ever scare yourself? I mean REALLY scare yourself? Not in the "I think I may have a strange new type of cancer" or "Oh dear God, I hope she's not fucking him?" type of way? More of a "I am in immediate danger of a horrible death" type way. Kind of like a fear of the dark 1000000x?

I think it's due to my constant self loathing, but I do this to myself on a regular basis.

Really quick related fact. My room has a doorway at the south end of it. It leads to a very small claustrophobic area that I refer to as "Where the people under the stairs lie in wait" because, basically, it's right under the stairway (dur). There's no door to this area, just an open doorway. It's dark in there.

Now, when I sleep, my room is usually very dim, and would be pitch black as there are no windows, but my computer is left on all night, so the screen saver usually provides some light, and it usually shines directly into that area, as when I'm on the computer, I sit with my back to the room.

Let me also say that I have actually been asleep for the past 6 hours or so. A slightly restless, but still, a deep sleep. When I get into a deep sleep, it CAN take a lot to wake me. In my old house, I would leave my door unlocked in case a wandering party happened to find its way over. Once, I went downstairs at like 3:30am to find Chud and Ian watching Young Guns II on my TV, and making all sorts of noise...apparently, I had invited them. Another time, I woke up with someone's frozen hands covering my eyes, saying "Guess who". Still another, I was woken up with two separate pairs of female lips on my face simultaneously, and a lot of giggling.

I can, to some people's horror, sleep with my eyes open. The first time it happened, it was at a party. There was a girl on top of me, straddling me, folded backwards over herself (picture Sharon Stone, reaching for an icepick in basic instinct...except she was NO Sharon Stone, ok) asleep, and I was there, also asleep, eyes fixed on the ceiling. People thought they had walked in on some horrific S&M death. That part really has nothing to do with anything, just thought, since I was talking about sleep, I'd throw that on out.

Usually, however, when I sleep, I don't sleep very deep, and the smallest little thing can wake me up. This was not the case tonight. I was practically comatose. The girl upstairs was doing laundry, and the wall that my head is practically up against when I sleep is shared with the laundry room...and I didn't hear anything.

SO. When I woke up about 40 minutes ago, startled out of a fairly pleasant dream, something had to have done it. Something big. It was one of those moments that you'd sit bolt upright in bed just to see what the fuck was going on, if your brain wasn't working half a second faster. Instead, I just lied there in terror, not knowing why.

NOW...back to the horror remakes conversation from two nights ago. They're remaking Black Christmas. I don't know how many people have seen this movie, but, suffice it to say, this is probably one of the scariest movies I've ever seen. Still is. If you've seen it, you probably know this movie was one of, if not THE, first "slasher" film. Halloween and When A Stranger Calls, though both great movies, borrowed some key things from Black Christmas, and still weren't as overall creepy.

NOW...fast forward to me trying NOT to sit up in bed. I'm staring over at the open doorway, and I notice..it's a fuckload darker than usual. I mean, I can't see six inches into the area.

I could have sworn I heard a voice hiss Agnes, It's me...Billy...Don't tell what we did..."...and I could have sworn I made out the outline of someone hunched over, holding a roll of plastic wrap.

Holy shit, I'm already fucking dead, was about all I got to think before my stupidass body flew out of bed and made a half-hearted fight-or-flight lunge towards the doorway, trying to redirect myself in mid-air to find the lightswitch, and catching it on the way down.

Now, this all sounds childish, but some things, I just build up too much in my head. Being the horror movie enthusiast that I am, I have had many vivid visions of a horrible death involving just about every method you can think of, but it's usually done in a dream, or at the least, a daydream...not thinking anything was actually going to happen.

I don't know what exactly I hoped to accomplish by flying across the room, I just know what happens in the first scene of Black Christmas, and there's NO WAY that was going to happen without a fight.

Okay. Time to switch to decaf, and get some tranquilizers.

[Fierce Critter]

I'm not a strong claustrophobic. But picturing having to crawl through a very tight, narrow tube-like passageway gets my heart racing and I really hope to God I never am faced with something like that.

I can feel a touch closed-in by a crowd sometimes, but it's nothing debilitating.

My worst is, however, my family & pets. Thought of harm to them scares the crap out of me. I had a nightmare last night that something horrible happened to Fletcher. Just horrible. I woke up freaking, and couldn't settle down until I'd held him and kissed him until he squirmed away.

Multiply that a hundred times for my husband.

Oh, there's spiders. Some of the stuff I see them do on Fear Factor would, I believe, give me a heart attack. No. Just... no.

And I don't like having to put a hand or foot in something I can't see or see through. Such as mucky water, a lightswitch in a basement, etc.

I have a thing with fish hooks too. The first time I saw Hellraiser I about pissed my pants.

[Homicidalheathen]

I am still creeped out by one of my 'totems'. The spider.

Oh and I went to a concert once and had to leave. I almost got squished. I panicked and left even though I had paid to get in.

[CandyQuackenbush]

I guess mine could be from the fear of getting killed too, I've just been conditioned for the last year that those kinds of things explode. Also here I can't just shoot a tailgater

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I aggree to this.

[Aralis]

I have a fear of drowning. A past incident scared the shit outta me. I was at Myrtle Beach in South Carolina and was out in the ocean...not too far out but not that close to shore and a wave came over me and dragged me under the water all the way to the shore. I was able to get outta the water then and crawled onto the shore freaking out and filled with salt water. My eyes were burning and a shit load of water came outta my nose and mouth when I bent over. I was so freaked out I went straight to my hotel room to try to calm down.

I also have a fear of ghosts/spirits. My Mom has told me alot of stories of her encounters and plus I am sure it doesn't help that I watch alot of horror and scary movies and have a vivid imagination. If I am home alone at night and hear some noise I can not identify I get kinda nervous and scared.

I have a fear of my house burning. This is related to a past incident in my life. I lived in a modular home with my fiance at the time and we were both gone and a fire started due to the saltwater fishtank equipment and the circuit breaker didnt work correctly and caused a fire. It wasnt that bad but a small fire can cause alot of damage. We had to live in a hotel for over a month while our house was cleaned and repaired and the worst part of it was we lost our beloved dog. When the firemen kicked in the door she came out in panic and and took off running and was never seen again. We searched and searched for her for weeks and never found her. Thank god we had good insurance and everything was replaced and cleaned and we got a shit load of new stuff including electronics and furniture and such but none of that could get our dog back.

[Saephyr]

Being totally honest.. living with cancer and not having anyway to get out of it yet.

AND the big ole reliable...being alone, mate-wise.