And It must Be Done

[Hellion]

:devil I have now decided to quit drinking all together, and get some form of professional help.I will admit that I have a serious drinking problem,and it is destroying everything that I have worked for.I am very sorry for any pain I had caused anyone,and I definately don't want to be like my p.o.s. old man.He was nothing but a miserable person.Due to the lack of benefits,I do not know if the state of Michigan even offers free health care.All I want to be is happy,not miserable,it got old,and I do not want to hurt anyone,friends and family.I wish I had never even started drinking. If any one knows of any free healthcare in the state let me know.I definately want this to come to an end,it litterly brings out the worst in me and I would rather just drink pop or water when I go out.I personally know people who go out every weekend and don't touch a damn thing. I have no choice because either I will be in jail or worse yet dead.I could use the help so this will be a thing of the past,and I do not want anyone ever buying me a drink ever again,this is no joke.You can have a goood time without getting smashed.

And I am doing this for myself also.

[Vater Araignee]

I H8 2 say it but... AA

[Hellion]

I H8 2 say it but... AA

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You are right,for myself and my friends and family.

[bean]

It's good that you recognize that you have a problem and want to do something to change it. It takes a lot of strength to try and combat this problem (I know, I've been struggling with it for years), so you really need the support of friends and family right now.

As far as free help, as Vater suggested, there is AA. You could also look online and see what sort of support groups are in your area, and maybe even join an online support group. What you really need right now is support and positive influences on your life.

It's not going to be easy, but just remember, if you fall off the wagon, you can get back on again.

Good luck! Anytime you want to chat, I'm usually around, though I don't know how much more help I will be since I don't quite have a full handle on my alcoholism, though I'm doing much better than I used to.

[Lilith]

Glad to see you are looking to take a step forward.

I am by no means an expert but for me and my family part of the healing process for living with and alcoholic parent and getting past being a dry drunk is to address and face the pain from the past. THis is what seemed to break the darkenss around here and help us move up a bit keep us a bit more on track.

http://www.couns.uiuc.edu/brochures/adult.htm

http://drinkinsafety.com/

i have seen some other articles that have been more helpful around here but i cant seem to find the right link, if i run across it i will post it. :clover

[Onyx]

Good for you Crank!

It's definitely possible to have a *great* time at the clubs or other places without alcohol. Lets you keep your cash for other things too.

[Msterbeau]

Good luck to ya Crank.

[kellygrrrrrl]

:clover Recognizing the issue is half the battle....good for you, and best of luck :clover

[Brenda Starrr]

Way to go, Crank!

[Rayne]

Good Luck Crank. I come from a family where alcohol rehab was a common term. I've seen how hard it is. Several times.

May something/someone grant you the serenity to accept the things you can not change, the courage to change things you can and the wisdom to know the difference.

[Hellion]

Good Luck Crank. I come from a family where alcohol rehab was a common term. I've seen how hard it is. Several times.

May something/someone grant you the serenity to accept the things you can not change, the courage to change things you can and the wisdom to know the difference.

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:cheerful

[littleimp]

Good luck sweetheart I know you can do it. My grandfather struggled the same problem for a long time and I've seen how diffucult it is. Just be strong and know that your friends and family have got your back.

[Hellion]

Good luck sweetheart I know you can do it. My grandfather struggled the same problem for a long time and I've seen how diffucult it is. Just be strong and know that your friends and family have got your back.

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28 years of drinking did'nt help,thanx for the reply.

[ManicQueen]

Good luck Crank. I hope everything works out for you =)

[Hellion]

Unfortunately it was a secret that I kept from everyone even my family for almost 2 decades.Wish weed was legal,causes no problems for me,but unfortunately I won't be able to pass a piss test.Right now I just want to dissapear,and be forgotten about.

[Fierce Critter]

Crank, good luck.

As usual, the best way I can offer advice is to offer myself up as an example.

In the early 90's, I realized my drinking was getting out of hand. For a change, I'll make a long story short and just say that I decided I had to quit for a while. And I did - cold turkey. Drank nothing for a few years, until I felt I could drink responsibly. And I was eventually able to return to safe, limited social drinking.

However, one realization I came to at that time was that I had to stop going to some of the places - bars, clubs, etc. - that I went and drank. I came to realize that the only way I could enjoy myself at those places was drunk. If I had to drink to enjoy myself there, then I realized I must not really enjoy that place itself - so I stopped going there.

Most recently, I've had to do the same thing. And this relates to you as well - if you are truly, clinically depressed, that is.

I have been unhappy with the amount of drinking I've been doing at City Club. I go there intending to only have a certain amount, and more often than not, end up very, very wasted. I just didn't understand why I was doing this, despite my conscious attempts not to.

But now, I do understand. It's because with my depression, I'm unable to get much - if any - enjoyment out of anything - period. I realized that the only way I can actually have fun at CC right now is to get drunk, which always makes me giddy & light.

And that's why you haven't seen me at City Club in over 2 months now. I can't go back there until I can do so without getting drunk. I need to get regulated on my new medication, and start "feeling" again.

Then, you'll see me back there, and I may even have a drink in my hand. But if I can't be there without being able to stick to a limit - then I can't be there.

Good luck. PM me if you need.

[Draco1958]

Crank, I did a search a while back for free health care for the unemployed and had found a website. Sent them an email and they sent a reply with a phone number to call. The group is in Caro, Mi but that is their headquarters. They can guide you to get what you need.

Julie Jernigan-Ahmed

734.347.1462

Z.I.A.D. Healthcare for the Underserved, Inc.

P.O. Box 112

Caro, MI 48723

www.ziadhealthcare.org

Hope this helps ya bud, you're in my thoughts.