I hate when people use their mental illness as a crutch to reinforce negative behaviors. So you have a cluster B, SO THE FUCK DO I but you don't see me fucking whining and crying about it - I take responsibility for it, I own it , with years of DBT I control it - it does not control me.
You could do the same if you stop making excuses and take responsibility for your fucked up behavior - but something tells me you will continue to whine and cry in a corner how everyone makes your life so fucked up.... when it's YOU.
Some people are so not worth the energy it takes to make them function...