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I am feeling rather depressed. I guess this is a good group that I can fully express the full reason of my depression so here it goes. I come from a very small community full of farmers and most families, mine included, have lived there for generations. Everybody knows everyone and it's one big good ol' boy gathering. I didn't fit in. Everyone drove big trucks except me, everyone rode a Harley except me, I have a BMW. People would bring their favorite cheap beer to bon fires that I wasn't invited to, plus I hate beer. I tried to make an effort to connect with the people around me. I went hunting and was asked if I was lost. I went to charity motorcycle rides and got made fun or given wrong information about times and places. I even got married to my high school sweet heart and that ended badly. Even through all of that I seemed to find my way. Now I am here in Novi. A new town and a new start with my girlfriend who grew up around here. She is loving it. Connecting with old friends and her family. She even found a job within 3 days of being here. I have nothing but my animals. I sit at home staring at the door with my dogs waiting for her to get home everyday. I know things will turn back around and I just need to keep pushing on but it's hard at times. No friends here, no job yet, no family here. I am just thankful that I found this group. It shows that there are some people who share common interests around here and gives me hope that I can figure it out. I didn't have many friends who truly connected with me back home but they were good friends and we had to have each other's backs because we didn't fit in with anyone there. I miss them terribly but am looking forward to making new friends here.