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That's a kinda cool statistic. Particularly since I'm #7, and that's my favorite number. :D

Troy Hair Dye Failure, Mom Check Up, True Meaning of Thanksgiving Revealed. Comments welcome. First "real" video I've done in awhile. Just too exhausted and sick-ish the last few months. Getting scared I might have to stop doing them period this computer keeps getting worse. I've replaced all the cheap parts and taken everything apart and put it back together and blown it all clean with an air compressor, the mother board and the video card are both battling to see who will fail first. lol :(

WTF IS House Spiral. Well its "my real family" That'd be people like (My mom, Bobbi, Marblez, David , Moe, Kat, Marco, Don Crumb, Rosey Blue, Paul Ferguson, Shaun Radford, Tron, Trene... until just recently grandma / sniffles... by no means a complete list) plus things that are associated with ... I don't have kids but "my babies" (DGN / YouTube / The Gathering). Plus the Motto of Truth and Kindness (could write a book on both concepts and how they interact / contradict sometimes) Word is your bond and all that. Are you part of house spiral? Well if you think you are, then you are. The real thing Im wondering about is.... Swirly thing with the bat guy in the middle (DeeGee)? That was supposed to be the "House Spiral Sigil/Flag" But Tron / Trene told me that spiral pattern might give some people seizures. Is it just the spiral itself that does that? I thought I finally had the HS sigil done. Does that mean I'm just going to have to accept that some people can't look at a spiral?

Like a useless beggar. To live I need to swallow my pride, not JUST on $$ issues but on all sorts of things. I have to ask for or accept help. Which really feels bad or unworthy of me and my sense of lets call it for lack of a better word "honor". It's not enough to just breath air and eat food. To start to be happier I need to change my mindset but in the mean time I need to have things to be happy with/about. Its too much. Too many have helped me already. I've already used up any share of "help" anyone is entitled to. I have to "let go" of a lot. Which I have made SOME progress. But my pride Which is partly why I want to live, so I can regain my 'real' sense pride (not the kind of pride that is currently holding me back) and sense of self worth. But the process that it takes to get there is so damn pathetic and "dependant" that it seems at least on and off like there is no point in bothering to continue. I'm trying to fight it, but its not easy. I will say many people here have made it a little easier. Can't thank you enough for that. For some reason my damn emotional side just keeps beating me to shit. I feel like I'm dragging heavy wet ropes around with me everywhere, all the time, 24/7 365 with very little reason to ever be actually happy. When I find myself being happy its almost like I don't deserve it or I don't even have the right to ask for help, as there are plenty of non-hopeless cases out there that could better use the help/resources.

*hugs* Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age [and ills ]should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Me too sister. *hugs*

I feel I need to stop beating myself up over things I can do nothing about.

If we weren't struggling to eat and pay our bills, I would also like a hoodie with this on it. or maybe a large patch to put on a hoodie. either way...

If I drove.. I might have an opinion but I don't. John has been an amazing help since scary stopped giving me a lift.. Troy, he'd even grab you. He's an amazing guy.

good ideas. Although cop lights apparently give some people seizures and they still use them... this has to be more important than cop lights lol.

moving spirals are more likely to cause issues. For online, the colors and shape of the lines you have are fine. if you were to have an actual physical flag made, it might cause issues if it were to flap in the wind, in its current spiral form. you could tone down the stark contrast, and straighten the spiral slightly. enough that it wouldn't mimic a spinning spiral, if it were to move in the wind, but keep its shape enough that people get the idea. Just my opinion *shrugs*

number 9 number 9 number 9

well had i not been so lazy i may have been a different number but i like 11. so 11 is good for me. but i also like 3, 5, 9, sometimes 1 and 8, not always 4 but it is ok since it is half of 8, and of course 23. but waiting for 23 would have just been ridiculous. that and i had no idea we were going to be "numbered". is this some sort of tracking device? are we being... watched? *looks around nervously... stops picking nose*

"What I want to know is: who does number 2 work for?" No. 1 and we want information....information...information from #6.

What I want to know is: who does number 2 work for?