Sometimes it bothers me and sometimes it doesn't. Currently not having income and going for disability I question as to whether I could take care of a partner. Would I be good for her or not. So being single is ok. But then when you go to bed alone and wake up alone, being single sucks. I miss waking up and being able to say good morning beautiful. And it sucks because sometimes you meet someone you want to take a chance with and you put yourself and your feelings out there and end up feeling unworthy because of their reaction. Then all you want to do is crawl into bed, pull the covers over your head and never wake up. You start to question your value to others, whether is it even worth being around. You start to wonder if you just disappeared would you even be missed. Some nights when you go to bed you pray not to wake up. So being single is mixed for me. I find it difficult to approach someone to let them know I am interested in them. So if I do that, it means I see something special in them, something I want to explore, find commonality, learn from the differences. So because of that, rejection tears into me like a dull knife. It hurts deeper than I can put into words. I could explain more but suffice to say I know I am not the worst choice a girl could make.