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~~~~~ Over the past few days, she has actually been compiling songs to determine which to use as an audition. You should definitely go for it. I'll help you out if there is an audition fee.

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~~~~~ Maybe you might want to try out for The Voice. CJ found out that they are taking auditions and you don't even have to leave home. With your voice, you could actually get a spot to be noticed and then you would have professionals helping you write your songs. I say go for it. You have the time...

~~~~~ I am glad you are sharing. Believe it or not, I was the exact image of what you wrote. The only difference is I didn't have any way to see a doctor for meds due to no medical coverage at that time and if I had quit my job, my mother would have kicked my a** all the way back to the office building. I suffered for years in my head over every little thing as if people around me could hear my thoughts, yet I was constantly told how good of a worker I was. And when I was "let go" by my supervisor by what she called "Voluntary Termination" meaning I could return to the workplace in the future, I was scared nearly to death because I had never been without a job or studying some form or education since I was 11 years old. However, I still had responsibilities because the courts had designated me as assistant to my mother as she was made to adopt her grandchildren a few months later. Unfortunately, I beat myself up nearly everyday due to what had happened. Then I was given the position of legal guardian and DHS Chore Worker for Trene and that helped get me out of my head somewhat. But it wasn't until I started posting on DGN that I started spilling my guts about my life's story and realized that there were people who had never met me, but actually cared about what I had to say. Some were in the same boat, others were the voice of reason. It made me feel like I finally found a place where I belonged. No one judged me for having a thought that I decided to express. It is liberating for me being on this forum. That's why I tell you to post without fear of ridicule. You have the right to be heard. If someone doesn't like that, they have the right to not read what you wrote...simple as that. ...and don't delete your stuff...

Omg I called the tobacco quitline a couple weeks ago and they are really helpful. They sent me a box of the actual brand name Nicoderm CQ patches and those things work! The generic wasn't doing much for me but the Nicoderm cq brand itself is amazing. I actually tested it yesterday and I didn't really have bad cravings and was excited to see that! I actually tried smoking and it was weird. I am really excited about this but nervous because I did buy a bunch of candy to help with the oral fixation part. They don't lie when they say food tastes better as if, I, who has a slight binge eating thing need food to taste better. I can eat and eat bad like I have a Double chocolate donut from Tim's sitting in a bag right now waiting to be devoured.

I been watching this https://www.webull.com/activity/get-free-stocks?source=google-search-pp-gw&gclid=Cj0KCQiA0fr_BRDaARIsAABw4EvV6KTpv9rflaxrXvFpx8hyjatrq60wzcvLgBEsxuzZqqNEtWEO-2MaAi_uEALw_wcB I was going to use stimulus $ but I'm living off that this month. I pay 600 a month rent for the little place I have but want to move because I don't have an oven and have no room for one and all I have is a shower. This is good for a bachelor pad. It was the old maintenance persons apartment here my sis and me was thinking maybe but I am paying a little more than half my income to rent alone so every month I have to hustle somehow lol. I'm aloud to work and have tried to take little jobs here and there but I get anxiety so bad that my brain keeps telling me stuff that is false but I end up quitting because I let my negative internal chatter work me into an internal web of dread, panic, anxiety, doubt, inattentiveness, feeling incompetent and doom even when I'm sitting at a job, kicking ass at it, getting compliments on my abilities, knowledge, etc. I let my self consciousness make me just give up. I'd actually be pretty successful probably if I could fix that problem. My mental health has been my main problem for me in holding a job, I am tired of denying it. I need to just not have so much anxiety and just do something already and tell my negative thoughts to go burn in hell but it's a hard world right now to actually try to think positively. I will also no longer have my anxiety pills after this month, I tried to rationalize this being a bad idea for the current world we live in that taking a person off klonopin is a bad idea but he wasn't having it. Omg this was a reply about the stock market and I just gave you an entire update on my life. 🤭 🤣 💜💜💜. Anyway, in short yea stock market seems to be a good idea.

I am so upset with everything "streaming" on fill in the blank +. BattleBots Bounty Hunter, Mike Row's new show, Josh Gate's next show, new stuff for Travel Channel, new stuff for Disney everything, new shows for Discovery Channel, etc., and they want you to pay more money just to watch them because you have to already have a subscription in order to order the Streaming shows. We may be in a pandemic where a stimulus has to help struggling families, but apparently "Mainstream" has more money than they know what to do with so why not charge more for yet another service that separates the haves from the have nots. Whatever 😒