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Down to the fucking ground. It's a strange feeling. So many memories. People I became friends with, some I'm still friends with, some long gone on separate paths. I cherish it all.

"There are no words big enough to describe grief. It’s an incredibly lonely, empty place, a large hole that swallows your soul and threatens to destroy it. It’s a dark place with no light that blinds you, deafens you, and crushes your spirit. It’s a place full of memories you’re afraid to lose. I was in that place. No amount of tears washed away the loneliness. No amount of screams chased it away. There were simply memories, an avalanche of memories that I desperately needed to hold onto. There was so much that death didn’t prepare me for. It didn’t prepare me for the storm that would break my will." ~Hawthorn

Phee was kind enough to let me know last night and Bean let me know this morning. Definitely in shock. Definitely in mourning in my own way - as I am sure we all are. It’s odd - how many connections that I have made in my life related to just this site. Without Troy there would be no Keegan, no Apollo, no Lumen - no me really, at least not as I am now. I would not be bound to Michigan- I would definitely be somewhere else, which means not the life I have now - I would not be the person I am today. I would not have two of the best friends for almost two decades of my existence, that I know would “burn it down to the fucking ground” with me ❤️ And though Troy and I only talked once in a while over the last few years, his mark is absolutely undeniable in my life. I wish I could have told him… I hope he found peace. I think every single one of us has been there. Please do let us know when a service or gathering is planned. I don’t do funerals . But I would like to visit if he is buried and pay my respects privately. Love to all the other elder DGNers out there that don’t frequent here anymore while they also mourn. At least most of you anyway. It’s a bizarre feeling. If you need a shoulder, are feeling particularly shitty and just need someone to listen - shoot me a message. Life is too fucking short to bare that shit alone …

I understand the conflicted feelings. I wouldn't be living where I am at if it wasn't for DGN. I wouldn't have my husband or child. I am thankful for what he provided the community.

I feel conflicted. I wouldn't be married to Marci without DGN. I probably never would have started DJingn without DGN (it's how Kat knew who I was, and she gave me my first booking), so so so many good friends developed because of DGN. Hell, a friend is dating someone I introduced her to that I knew from DGN. A lot of appreciation for the impact that creation had on my life. I had a falling out with Troy, one that I don't think was ever repairable, years ago. This is a weird one to process, because without Troy there's so much that I love about life that I wouldn't have

I feel like I need to do something to help. I'm so worried about Mrs. Crayson and Bobbi.

You had to post this literally right when you got home from dropping the Looms lol And - Ditto.

I never met Troy in person. Only interactions here. He was always nice to me. Its a shame he's gone. If he was suffering from anything, now he is no longer. He was cool to me, Ill remember that.

~~~~~ Covid is becoming more and more confusing to diagnose these days. It's probably mutated too much to be identified like it was when it first appeared.

Armenian wedding are in fact crazy. Right when the bride and groom walked in everyone started jumping and the music was crazy. It calmed down for now as we are all now eating

Keegan’s response to me trying to explain what a Message Board is … “Ummmm”. priceless.

It’s been a minute for me too.

I swear this is the most ive checked DGN in over a decade

Accidentally parked myself in the valet area. Oh well. The Armenian church was so beautiful. I wish I could have stayed to look at the art. First time going to a church ceremony in YEARS and I felt the energy. Currently at the reception waiting for it to start and for the rest of my coworkers to show up.

There are alot of emotions stirring around. It's definitely hitting hard. He had such a huge impact.

unless there are two of them, papa pete's is in kalamazoo... (nvmd, i see the title has been changed.)

Watching this, remembering the fun, memories. I'm cracking up still when he said " The Great Philosopher, Andrew Dice Clay" 😭

Yeah

I’m so sad. I just found out via Facebook this morning.

Shock is it right now

Surprised

It was a different discord server. And it's understandable that you took care of yourself.

Sorry, Kat. I walked in from work about an hour ago.

~~~~~ So sorry sweetie, I just got in and saw all the posts.

I got the drumstick from second salem that got tossed into the crowd. I feel blessed by the gods tonight

These are shortened re-edited versions of older videos. Every wed going on 7 (?) months now. I personally am not a fan of the "6th grade humor" images that my friend uses to make jokes but, among the whole 10 people that actually watch the channel they are popular. I did the 20 hours of editing in the first place, its being edited for free (and I don't have the original files for most of the videos anymore) so I can't complain about the "style." too much. These would all be gone if Shannon_Atx hadn't saved them. On a phone the difference won't matter much but on a larger screen its obvious these arent the original files. She had saved them for herself and my own backup went poof.

~~~Eat, Drink, Be Merry and Revel in the Season~~~