Longing

[beautifullyXdecayed]

Have you ever noticed that when you seem to slow down things wiz past you without acknowledging the passing? Things have been crazy lately, I know here I go agian with the diary type lifestyle... like any of you want to hear this garbage anyways... but know that I will listen just as much as the next person. we as humans all long to be loved... without love there would in fact be nothing between us. I noticed that girls are just as manipulative as boys... as if I am one to start pointing fingers and playing the battle of the sexes game... but seriously, I don't understand in how so much time being with someone and caring about them and having things end on bad terms just as many times as you fell back in love you can still honestly say that you love someone like that... some one who you damaged and tormented just as much as they you. I just do not get it. perhaps it is the lack of maturity... perhaps it has something to do with that idea of faith... I admit it... I have no faith in this thing called humanity I have no faith in humans themselves they always seem to be after one common goal and that is fending for themselves. you only see people helping out others because its publicity. I'm just irritated with the matter... that people can be so superfical sometimes... I miss my roots I miss being at home with more friends then I do now... I feel like I have lost those friends cause time is just going by... but in the end I will have hoped that for the sake of argument that I come out a stronger and more knowledgable person. sorry if this bored anyone... it's wicked if you guys can start ranting about nothings just so I get an idea of what it is people rant about other then listening to my own voice... cheers

[Reaper]

I know by experience and by seeing what others have posted in the past that you are not alone. You just live, learn, and learn not to do it again, but still do it again. You keep thinking that it could be different this time when in the back of your mind there is a hint of doubt and fear from the last episode. Once you run into the rut a couple of times, your heart hardens more from it. I have seen many women ruined due to this cycle. Their whole outlook and attitude changes. Thing is, if you continue down that path, you will miss out on a lot. Sure, you could have plenty of time to yourself and if that makes you happy, then good for you. Chances are though, that they will often wonder what could have been if the right one came along. Just my experience.

[SuZQZ]

I'm sorry, but I need clarification. Are you trying to understand how people can subject themselves to being hurt over and over again from a bad realtionship (bad for whatever reason)? Or are you trying to understand why humans put ourselves out there, hoping for love, and knowing the hurt and pain that comes along with it? It's been a very long week, and I want to be sure I understand your post so I can ponder it properly.

[Homicidalheathen]

I'm sorry, but I need clarification. Are you trying to understand how people can subject themselves to being hurt over and over again from a bad realtionship (bad for whatever reason)? Or are you trying to understand why humans put ourselves out there, hoping for love, and knowing the hurt and pain that comes along with it? It's been a very long week, and I want to be sure I understand your post so I can ponder it properly

Its cause we are stupid and/or crazy. What was that post not to long ago......what is the definition of insanity? Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.

My man done made me go completely nuts last night. I am going to be a hermit now.