Wow - This Is Crazy.....

[crunchy_pickle (5)]

Ok so I know about brought up this weird infatuation with Trent Reznor. The dude's been my role model for a long time, and I don't really care what anyone says. Aside from Jesus, I think he's the only one who really gets me.

I've never even met the dude, but this shit says so much. Do you think maybe by some freak chance I just smoked way too much weed and let him influence me way too much when I asked God to send me an angel that day 16 years ago. To send me something real. To send me something because this is the first time I ever asked him for something for the world instead of myself. I don't know.

Maybe it's all in my head. Maybe it doesn't matter to me, because it's real enough for me and I need to believe in something? Maybe, I just didn't agree with any religion and thought that Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, and Moses were something else. Maybe I thought they were the keys to our future. Maybe I thought that God spread us so we could join up again one day.

Maybe I thought that love and beauty would conquer one day.

Maybe I thought too much.

Just because I wanted something. Secretly. For myself too. Because I hurt so bad. I just wanted love. I was so alone at that time. I just asked God to not make me feel lonely and help me do something for humanity.

I fucked up.

I didn't listen.

I tried to conform.

I tried to be something.

That I'm not.

I thought I was better.

Then I was.

My pride got the better of me.

Now I'm running out of time.

Maybe my mission is a failure.

Maybe my mission isn't real at all.

But I believe.

That Jesus is coming.

And I have to do something.

Before we all die.

I think this about sums it up.

I really just want to let my dead Father Joseph Remisoski.

Know how much I love him.

And that I'm doing what I can.

I will be with you soon.

I would also like to let Jesus know.

That I'm trying.

I don't know what to do.

But I'm trying man.

I want you to know.

That I love you.

No matter how much of a dickhead I can be sometimes.

And I'm trying man.

From the mouth of Trent Reznor:

they're starting to open up the sky

they're starting to reach down through

and it feels like we're living in that split-second

of a car crash

and time is slowing down

and if we only had a little more time

then this time

is all we have

do you remember the time we

and all the times we

and should have

and were going to

i know

and i know you remember

how we could justify it all

and we knew better

in our hearts we knew better

and we told ourselves it didn't matter

and we chose to continue

and none of that matters anymore

in the hour of our twilight

and soon it will be all said and done

and we will all be back together as one

if we will continue at all

shame on us

doomed from the start

may god have mercy

on our dirty little hearts

shame on us

for all we have done

and all we ever were

just zeros and ones

and you never get away

[Zero Sum lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

and you never get to take the easy way

and all of this is a consequence

brought on by our own hand

if you believe in that sort of thing

and did you ever really find

when you closed your eyes

any place that was still

and at peace

and i guess i just wanted to tell you

as the lights start to fade

that you are the reason

that i am not afraid

and i guess i just wanted to mention

as the heavens will fall

we will be together soon if we

will be anything at all

shame on us

doomed from the start

may god have mercy

on our dirty little hearts

shame on us

for all we have done

and all we ever were

just zeros and ones

shame on us (shame on us)

we knew from the start

may god have mercy

on our dirty little hearts

shame on us (shame on us)

for all we have done

and all we ever were

just zeros and ones

[Homicidalheathen]

I have always thought god spoke to people through music. No matter what kind. Musicians are a channel for the divine a lot of times.

[crunchy_pickle (5)]

I have always thought god spoke to people through music. No matter what kind. Musicians are a channel for the divine a lot of times.

That's awesome. I always thought so too.... I wonder how many other people always thought so and just didn't want to say anything? I wonder if the creative minds, artists, and people with emotion that haven't completely conformed to the monotony of life and still have the ability to dream and hope as we should:

I wonder if it really matters what religion you are.

No demons I've ever seen really looked that bad.

They're mostly feelings. Spirits, negative channels.

Imagine a jetstream

Across the globe.

God is the good (ying)

Satan is the bad (yang)

I'm not establishing a good or evil force to ying or yang, but suggesting that the balance is out of line, and it is not fair to all people.

We cannot progress like this.

I accept Jesus as my savior so what?

When Jesus spoke to 7 angels in 7 churches how do you know they were "Christian Angels"?

What if there was an angel for everyone.

Here is one example, I don't know how many major religions there are in the world that could encompass them all, but here's my thoughts.

The Native Americans and many other civilization were attracted to God already, through many forms in nature.

So you have a Nature Angel maybe that encompasses nature religions.

A buddha angel.

An angel that encompasses Judaism, Christianity, and Islam.

Etc, etc. I don't know. I don't know everything.

But I think I know something. What do you think you know? Why don't we share this shit instead of keeping it inside? If you have a feeling from this share it. This is Kindergarten class, and I'm willing to share.