My Dad

[crunchy_pickle (5)]

My Dad's liver and kidneys are shutting down. He probably won't make it through the night. I haven't been very active on here, or very social at the club because he's been declining for about a month now. At any rate, please say a prayer for his soul. Thanks.

My brother is on his way so I'm out of here.

[Brenda Starrr]

Oh, God....

Kevin, I'm so sorry...... :tear

[DarkenedCharm]

You and your family are in my thoughts, Kevin. Pull everyone together and you will all work through it. It's hard, I know. I'm thinking about you guys.

Good luck

[Guest Megalicious]

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[Guest Game of Chance]

Its a tough situation bro...I lost my mom last year to lung cancer...she was sick for about 2 years...now matter how many people tell you they feel for you...they can never really appreciate the feeling of losing a loved one...my thoughts are with you and your family

[Msterbeau]

You and your family are in my thoughts CP...

[Nienna]

I'm so sorry... There really nothing else I can say that will make you feel better. *hugs*

[crunchy_pickle (5)]

Well Dad hung on for about 10 minutes after I got there. I told him how much I love him, how much our family does, how much I appreciate everything he's always done for me, and told him that he didn't have to worry about Mom, because we would take care of her. He passed shortly after this. Surprisingly, my first reaction was anger. I was angry that for the past 28 years I've slowly watched everything and everyone I've ever cared about be taken away from me. I hit the chapel, knelt down and cried my eyes out. My Mom was angry at God, and admittedly, I was too for a moment. This is why I left for the chapel, I didn't feel that I could comfort my family as much as I wanted to. I have 3 brothers and a sister though, and although we were all very upset we were there for each other. I'm not angry with God anymore, but I just wish he would've shown me a miracle. I know through him all things are possible, and he has the power to save my Dad. Christ said a mustard seed of faith could move mountains. I guess I have no faith, because I couldn't help my Dad. I just hope he has found comfort now.

[Homicidalheathen]

I too, made a promise on a death bed to take care of someone. You being there for your mom now is wonderful. It may have helped him pass knowing you would be there for her. I hope your heart heals soon.

Well Dad hung on for about 10 minutes after I got there.  I told him how much I love him, how much our family does, how much I appreciate everything he's always done for me, and told him that he didn't have to worry about Mom, because we would take care of her.  He passed shortly after this.  Surprisingly, my first reaction was anger.  I was angry that for the past 28 years I've slowly watched everything and everyone I've ever cared about be taken away from me.  I hit the chapel, knelt down and cried my eyes out.  My Mom was angry at God, and admittedly, I was too for a moment.  This is why I left for the chapel, I didn't feel that I could comfort my family as much as I wanted to.  I have 3 brothers and a sister though, and although we were all very upset we were there for each other.  I'm not angry with God anymore, but I just wish he would've shown me a miracle.  I know through him all things are possible, and he has the power to save my Dad.  Christ said a mustard seed of faith could move mountains.  I guess I have no faith, because I couldn't help my Dad.  I just hope he has found comfort now.

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[Brenda Starrr]

Well Dad hung on for about 10 minutes after I got there.  I told him how much I love him, how much our family does, how much I appreciate everything he's always done for me, and told him that he didn't have to worry about Mom, because we would take care of her.  He passed shortly after this.  Surprisingly, my first reaction was anger.  I was angry that for the past 28 years I've slowly watched everything and everyone I've ever cared about be taken away from me.  I hit the chapel, knelt down and cried my eyes out.  My Mom was angry at God, and admittedly, I was too for a moment.  This is why I left for the chapel, I didn't feel that I could comfort my family as much as I wanted to.  I have 3 brothers and a sister though, and although we were all very upset we were there for each other.  I'm not angry with God anymore, but I just wish he would've shown me a miracle.  I know through him all things are possible, and he has the power to save my Dad.  Christ said a mustard seed of faith could move mountains.  I guess I have no faith, because I couldn't help my Dad.  I just hope he has found comfort now.

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I too, have felt like I lost my faith MANY times. Each time, I asked God why bad things happen to wonderful people. I still don't have the answer.

You DID help your Dad, Kevin. You loved him, and you were there for him. That alone was probably more comforting to him than you can ever imagine.

*hugs*

[Onyx]

I've come to the conclusion that we have to learn to live without answers and just cherish our memories and love those who are left here with us while we can. I am sorry for your pain. :(

So much sorrow in this world.

(((hugs))))

[ManicQueen]

I'm so sorry for your lose. Things do get better with time.

[Troy Spiral (13)]

Well Dad hung on for about 10 minutes after I got there.  I told him how much I love him, how much our family does, how much I appreciate everything he's always done for me, and told him that he didn't have to worry about Mom, because we would take care of her.  He passed shortly after this.  Surprisingly, my first reaction was anger.  I was angry that for the past 28 years I've slowly watched everything and everyone I've ever cared about be taken away from me.  I hit the chapel, knelt down and cried my eyes out.   My Mom was angry at God, and admittedly, I was too for a moment.  This is why I left for the chapel, I didn't feel that I could comfort my family as much as I wanted to.  I have 3 brothers and a sister though, and although we were all very upset we were there for each other.  I'm not angry with God anymore, but I just wish he would've shown me a miracle.  I know through him all things are possible, and he has the power to save my Dad.  Christ said a mustard seed of faith could move mountains.  I guess I have no faith, because I couldn't help my Dad.   I just hope he has found comfort now.

I've lost several people in my life due to various illness and other issues. Its heartbreaking. I feel your pain. Try not to blame yourself , its hard i know. I've been blaming myself for several things for years and years. Just have to try to look to the future. Things do get easier to deal with in time, but its hard to see that when your heart is heavy and your feeling majorly down.

If you want to vent feel free to give me a call or PM me 734 560 8177.

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[Shade Everdark]

You've my deepest sympathies.

[gothicmom]

*HUGS*

[pomba gira]

My thoughts are with you ... this will sound trite & cliched but you are so very very blessed you got to spend those final moments with your father and let him know your feelings. If there is such a thing as a "good" death then your father had one, with his loved ones gathered around him to ease his passing. Don't feel that you couldn't "help" your father 'cos it sounds to me like you gave him the greatest comfort anyone could hope for at the end of their time here.

And anger is a perfectly natural reaction for even the most devout person. Try not to beat yourself up for being human.

[Medea]

I'm worried myself. My mother is slowly but surely dying of cancer, but I have no idea when it will happen. She's already lasted longer than some expected.

[paradox]

dude.. :tear

[DarkenedCharm]

Kevin...

You've got my number. Call me if you need an extra shoulder. Very sorry.

[Morbid Side]

I am deeply sorry to hear, things will eventually get better. All you need is hope.

[Jarodaka]

:tear

[LadyWindstone]

*hugs* I'm thinking of you and my thoughts are also with your family.

[crunchy_pickle (5)]

I wanted to thank all of you for your support. Here's an older pic of my Dad, so you guys can see where I got my good looks from. He is definitely the best Dad I could ever have asked for, and I miss him very much.

[Onyx]

Wow. You do look a lot alike.

[LadyWindstone]

are you sure you weren't long separated twins? wow its amazing how much you look alike.