No human words

[Onyx]

I can really relate to these lyrics today. My boyfriend Joey broke up with me Sunday morning and the pain I feel seems almost unbearable. We were together for a year and a half and I've never loved anyone so much in my life.

It would be easier if I could even get angry about it but I still love him so much that all I want is the best for him. Part of me keeps hoping he will call and say he made a mistake. :-( I'm thankful I'm still on vacation until Wednesday because I can hardly see through my tears.

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No Human Words

The widowed whale never cried like this

How could I behave for that tranquil speech you gave

That ripped out chunks of me and served it like another's flesh

Is it too much to ask for you to understand

It would have been easier if you'd gone in a car crash

It would have been easier if you'd gone away forever

I can't get used to being something you don't want to touch

I'm not prepared to hemorrhage these emotions

There are no human words for this The human mouth cannot express What cannot find a moment's rest There are no human words for this

The beauty pageant of this world is always cruel

And the winning envelope has lost its perfume

Good things are so delicious to abuse

What have you let loose? This hole this thing this pain -

It does not feed on grass or grain

There is no sleep that's unpolluted by your lovely face

The memories are now poisoned by my ugly rage

I could forgive you if you'd gone in a car crash

Your consolations are the spit in the rapist's hand

There are no human words for this The human mouth cannot express What cannot find a moment's rest There are no human words for this

This year's favorite might be next year's whipping boy

My sorrow's greater for the joy of hat we had before

If you had a single arrow you could find no place in me to make a wound that is not bruised, that's not in pain

Damn it. pain. Why? pain. Stupid. pain. Wake up. pain. Cold Turkey. pain. Make it stop. pain.

Shut up. pain. I'm sorry. pain. Can't think. pain. Bitter. pain. Where are you? pain. Who is she? pain. Pathetic. pain. ...and it was worth it... pain. You're done. What's next?

There are no human words for this The human mouth cannot express What cannot find a moment's rest There are no human words for this.

[Homicidalheathen]

Nothing I can say will make you feel better but know we are here for you if ya wanna chat. I am on yahoo as the same name.

[Daevion]

sorry to hear that...breakups are never fun

[Nienna]

*hug*

[Brenda Starrr]

:tear

I wish I knew what to say....

I'm so sorry.

[Black Sunday9]

Sorry onyx. I can relate to how you're feeling....even though I know it doesn't make you feel any better.

but there are more fish in the sea....sounds lame but it's true.

[Fierce Critter]

Damn, I'm so, so sorry.

Is there some kind of pall over DGN'ers right now? Some kind of curse?

We all need to break out our rosaries, holy water, herbs, candles & pentagrams and raise some serious positive energy here...

[Daevion]

Damn, I'm so, so sorry.

Is there some kind of pall over DGN'ers right now? Some kind of curse?

We all need to break out our rosaries, holy water, herbs, candles & pentagrams and raise some serious positive energy here...

<{POST_SNAPBACK}>

All that positive energy might cause most dgn'rs to burst into flames....probably better off with the curse.

[Onyx]

Thank you all for thinking of me. I still feel like my heart's been carved out with a rusty blade, but it does help me feel a little less alone.

[Brenda Starrr]

Oh honey, too many people care about you, so you won't be alone!!

[JaneDead]

i am sorry you are in so much pain onyx. and like brenda said, too many people care about you, so you won't be alone!!