I miss all the little things :-(

[Onyx]

I used to spend Friday night snuggled up with my boyfriend watching the news and Jay Leno. I miss that so much. It's not even been two weeks but it feels like so much longer. :(

I miss little things like that the most.

I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and man I wish I could have my memories erased like they did. The memories even invade my dreams every damn night and I wake up feeling sad and lonely.

Life just sucks for me right now. I guess my job is going well and I'm thankful for that, but I'm so bored I volunteered for overtime this weekend to keep my mind occupied. I hate this small town I live in, can't move for nine fucking years because of the custody ruling, unless my ex-husband would agree to it, and he won't. My kids don't even like it here.

*sigh*

and that concludes my whine for tonight.

[torn asunder]

you can have your memories erased - it's called an alcoholic stupor - i did it for a couple years, and believe me, it didn't really help much, although i did manage to live thru the loss of my world... take care of yourself.

[Onyx]

Thanks Torn.

Yep, the alcoholic stupor sounds tempting sometimes, especially if it would kill those sort of disturbing dreams, but I know I'd end up in worse shape. I never drink - can't stand the taste and my tummy wouldn't take it well.

ah well, I'll deal.

[Fierce Critter]

Onyx, you know I know what you're going through.

9 years sounds like a life sentence. I'm so sorry. I think I'd lose it altogether if I had to be stuck down here that long.

I hope something comes through for you that'll allow you to get out of there sooner.

Until then, I know it's very, very small solace, but at least you ARE in a decent state, and within a few hours drive of some city nightlife. GOOD city nightlife.

I'm looking forward to meeting you sometime at CC when we return. VERY much looking forward to it.

[Onyx]

That's true, I am within driving distance, and I don't really mind the drive that much. Going to Detroit beats fighting Chicago traffic.

I'd love to meet you too. I may have to put aside my black mood and my aversion to seeing my ex again and get my butt over to the club again after you get here.

[Brenda Starrr]

I think about you often, and I know that you'll be okay. Even if you don't. I'll see you in a couple of months, and hopefully, you'll be in a much better place....

*Hugs*

[Onyx]

Thanks for the hugs

[Troy Spiral (13)]

Oynx you know i understand, totally. Just try to keep your chin up, its hard i know. Very hard.

My ear and/or shoulder offer stands, as always hon.

*long, comforting embrace*

[Onyx]

Thanks Troy