Busted Knucles and deep anger

[Head Wreck]

Robyns back in the area.

She's in my home town.

nice of her to NOT let me know.

i thought we had a friendship at least. instead i have to be told by someone else in passing.

i know have to appologise to my friend. i busted my knucles on his wellpump and thats in 2 pieces also.

i could deal with it when she was getting by in england, doing the odd music video to help kickstart her career as an actress.

but she's here on my doorstep. away from any media center. i just feel betrayed, to be so proud that she was getting her life back on the road to sucess only for some unkown reason to me to be back here.

further more it proves that now she knows sortoff how i feel it has wierded her out and friendship is now no more. i still do think about her day to day, now its every 5 mins.

i fecking hate being like this. no focus in my thoughts, 3 days before i set off to a 3 day event where i need to be relaxed and able to empty my head out of everything in order to fight.

and ontop of that i got the aches and stomach cramps from comming down from cafine drinks hard.

i may be short with people over the next few days. please dont get offended

[Onyx]

ack - you've got it as bad as I do.

You need to find a way to avoid her.

I expect a lot of folks here disagree with me, but I don't think you can be just friends with all those strong feelings you have for her, at least not until they have time to fade, and maybe they never will. You are just torturing yourself. It just keeps opening all those old wounds.

Onyx

*needs to listen to her own advice*

[Head Wreck]

thats just it. all i want is friendship, to help her if she asks for it

i cant do that if she doesnt keep me in the loop.

[Homicidalheathen]

Man, don't let other peoples wierd shit get you that upset....it's not worth it. :confused

[Fierce Critter]

I've seen you go on about her for years now, HW.

I can't stand it that she has that power over you.

You're one the one hand impressively smitten & romantic. On the other hand, scarily obsessive.

I wish someone would come along with the power to make you forget her. :(

[Brenda Starrr]

=(