DarkChylde Posted December 13, 2005 Posted December 13, 2005 Incase if some wondered why I seemed bit diffrent or something was just wrong since november, well heres my confession, something I kept hidden from most because I dont like to sound like a broken record. (Only few know that is) It all begins last oct. on halloween, when me and a few were at cc that night (while durin the day I went trick or treating hehe). I was having fun like usual drinking and had a balloon attatched to me. So later on the night I talked to a friend of mine I knew for couple months at cc (not gonna mention any names) she was going through some stuff so I didnt had a problem sitting down and listen, gave her the best advise I could through such a harsh situation. I asked her if she was doing anything after the club she said no so then I asked her if she would like to come with us to hazel park so she wouldnt have to be alone, she said sure. After the club closed she rode in the back of the montey carlo with us to hazel park. We were awake for awhile just sitting and talking which I was only expecting to do when we got there since she was just a friend.....Well um, hehe, it end up leading to more than just that though. She slowly ended up in my arms as we were trying to fall asleep but instead, we end up kissing. We made out n talked t'ill the dawn slowly creeped up (of course we didnt end up having sex though.....Well not that night that is) after when crank and tiff left for work we stole the matress and fell asleep. The next day when we woke up we just hung with tiff's roomates for a bit bullshitting and all that, originally I had to take my friend back home once crank got back from work but then she asked me if she could stay another night and she didnt want to go home, I said sure and asked her if she like to tag along with us for awhile hopping on n off at peoples places, she said sure. To my surprise, I spent way lot more time with her than I expected, she was with me for 2 weeks straight. We even went to mephistos together of course along with Dollar Dave who kept us highly entertained on the way there n back. LOL although I know this is a little bit off-story but I do have to mention that night after the place closed down, Dollar Dave setted the dumpster on fire in the alley way, we had to go immeditly and we we pulled out I saw huge smoke pouring out of the alley way and people were looking around it like WTF lol. So anyways back to the story now. We ended up staying a few nights at Dollar Daves place as well, after mephistos and everyone fell asleep, we had sex. Afterwards then we went outside and layed in the courtyard surrounded by the apt. buildings in the grass as the leaves slowly fall looking up into the stars, it was a wonderful night. A day before friday me and her end up having a long talk about our statis and situation at the moment, after a very long talk we decided that we can get into a relationship, everything was going all good until the next night at cc. When we got there I was getting bit of this horrible vibe like something bad was gonna happen, she was feeling the same way as well, but we chose to brush it off and try to have a good time. When she went to the bathroom I talked to a few friends of mine in the dgn corner for awhile finally having a good time. But of course I didnt saw her around for couple hours. Then all of a sudden she came up to me in tears told me that the guy she was persueing for so long before knowing me, he talked to her saying of how he really felt like he missed her for 2 weeks and he missed the fact of how she try to chase him also wanting to be with her. I was like oh fucking great. She was very confused and torn saying that she needs time to think and know of who she really wants, she asked me if we could start over a bit. Sadly I repplied yes and she also asked if I would wait for her until she made her decision, I didnt knew whut to say except nod my head. This guy I also knew for a long time, he's one of the few old aqaintences at cc I talked to almost very weekend. He was all drunk and wanted to drive back home in that condition, so then she told me that she had to leave and drive for him, they left around 2:30. So yup, the rest of my night was completely ruined I was feeling very depressed yet pissed but I didnt knew who to be pissed at though, so I just held it all inside. I was too upset ta stay t'ill closing so I left around 3:30. Once I got back to newport I went into the bathroom and started writing her a very long letter, as I was writing I ended up getting very tired so I decided ta go to bed and finish it once I woke up and chilling at city bites before the club opened. So the next day when we got to the ramada I finished it as I was drinking coffee and smoking some cigs, around 10 we headed inside the club and once I saw her I gave her the letter, she read it and told me that she understood of how I felt. Since her stuff was still in the trunk of the monte carlo she had to come back with us that night so she could atleast get her stuff back and able ta get back home. After when we got back to newport I showed her lake erie which is only couple blocks away from my moms house, my secret spot of getting away from everything to take a breather from stress. She was quite overwhelmed and amazed by the lake because she never been to the shores of a lake. We walked along the shores and watched the small waves pass through the lake as the sun started rising reflecting off the waters and beams forming from the holes in the clouds. We talked for couple of hours cuddling her saying that she just wants to forget whutever was going on the past weekend at city club and enjoy the moment, which I had no problem of granting her that yet very sad knowing that moment was gonna come to a end and that would be the last time we ever spent time together plus I knew in the back of my mind that she was going to choose the other guy. The next day we ended up going to her parents place on the west side of detroit, I was there for almost a week. One day the guy showed up out of the blue, he told her that he was getting ready to pack up his stuff and get ready for moving out of where he was recently staying, she told me that she did promised him to help him with the packing so she had no choice but ta go with him that night. So from then I was stuck at her parents house all by myself, no transportation to leave and no one in sight ta talk to atleast (which I posted about before in the other thread I made). Once after she finally came back she then told me that she finally made her decision (which was actually a good thing because I came close of saying fuck it and let her go for him). Which of course im pretty sure that y'all all know the answer to that.......She chose him, I wasnt surprised and was prepared for that though, but however I was very depressed. But we did decided to be good friends though. So yup, I think that concludes it now of whut happened to me at that time without most not knowing. However it was basicaly my mistake though, I shouldnt get affiliated with somone right after going through a break-up with my other ex. All its doing is creating a very huge deep black-voided wound in my heart. Since then she also seemed very very distant from me, she dont bother saying hi or goodbye unless if I approach her but she dont say much and keep taking off. This happens to me alot and im growing very tired of always losing somone I really care for.
Blackmail Posted December 14, 2005 Posted December 14, 2005 Incase if some wondered why I seemed bit diffrent or something was just wrong since november, well heres my confession, something I kept hidden from most because I dont like to sound like a broken record. (Only few know that is) It all begins last oct. on halloween, when me and a few were at cc that night (while durin the day I went trick or treating hehe). I was having fun like usual drinking and had a balloon attatched to me. So later on the night I talked to a friend of mine I knew for couple months at cc (not gonna mention any names) she was going through some stuff so I didnt had a problem sitting down and listen, gave her the best advise I could through such a harsh situation. I asked her if she was doing anything after the club she said no so then I asked her if she would like to come with us to hazel park so she wouldnt have to be alone, she said sure. After the club closed she rode in the back of the montey carlo with us to hazel park. We were awake for awhile just sitting and talking which I was only expecting to do when we got there since she was just a friend.....Well um, hehe, it end up leading to more than just that though. She slowly ended up in my arms as we were trying to fall asleep but instead, we end up kissing. God damn library time!! I'll try to finish this later. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> WHAT? You ended it right there? It's worse than in the Matrix Reloaded when the action is getting good and then it just says "to be continued". Look, if you don't continue this story soon I am liable to come to whatever library you're at and start throwing books off the shelf in every aisle. This is BULLSH#%@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Brenda Starrr Posted December 14, 2005 Posted December 14, 2005 OMG. I want to be there for that. Can you wait till Spring, Ted? Please??
Blackmail Posted December 14, 2005 Posted December 14, 2005 OMG. I want to be there for that. Can you wait till Spring, Ted? Please?? <{POST_SNAPBACK}> Sure, I do it at the Clawson library every tuesday. Additionally, You should see their bathroom after I am done in there. Today I left a three-flush-monster that just won't die.
Blackmail Posted December 14, 2005 Posted December 14, 2005 Ooops, sorry DC, please continue the story, I didn't mean to hi-jack your thread.
Brenda Starrr Posted December 14, 2005 Posted December 14, 2005 Sure, I do it at the Clawson library every tuesday. Additionally, You should see their bathroom after I am done in there. Today I left a three-flush-monster that just won't die. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> Oh my God!!!! I can't wait to come back! LMAO@three-flush-monster.....
Homicidalheathen Posted December 15, 2005 Posted December 15, 2005 YAH, how dare you leave us hangin' DC! I smell drama......3ways.....FREAKY SEX STUFF on the horizon! ????
DarkChylde Posted December 15, 2005 Author Posted December 15, 2005 WHAT? You ended it right there? It's worse than in the Matrix Reloaded when the action is getting good and then it just says "to be continued". Look, if you don't continue this story soon I am liable to come to whatever library you're at and start throwing books off the shelf in every aisle. This is BULLSH#%@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <{POST_SNAPBACK}> Sure, I do it at the Clawson library every tuesday. Additionally, You should see their bathroom after I am done in there. Today I left a three-flush-monster that just won't die. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> Hahaha!!! That would defintely make things interesting here at the library. Sorry about that y'all, sometimes the library time sneaks up on me without notice, like out of the blue tap on the shoulder saying its time to go. But anyways im back with more time so I shall finish.
EatAjaxAndDie Posted December 15, 2005 Posted December 15, 2005 gather around the round table youngins...papa DarkChylde is gonna tell us a story!
Mzdeadlyspell Posted December 18, 2005 Posted December 18, 2005 hmmm I wonder if you were talking about it that one night I was up at the club...hmmm
ZhukovCodeslinger Posted December 19, 2005 Posted December 19, 2005 I just read your story... man that girl has really put you though the wringer. This is just part of the learning process that you are going to have to go through since you are a nice guy. She only does this to you for two reasons: 1. because she can (she appears to be able to do very hurtful things while telling you she doesnt want to do them), and 2. because you let her (since you are a nice guy she got more than one chance) one more thought. Does this really fit the definition of "love Triangle"? in order for it to do so, one person must be "in love" with the other two. I dare say you dont love the other guy and he doesnt love you... that leaves her... does she love anyone? I hope this works out for you...
Crazed Vampyress Posted December 19, 2005 Posted December 19, 2005 Awww... sweetie im sorry. women suck. you really do have that 'nice guy' vibe going on and it sucks, but that will get you hurt. on the up side it will also get you some of the best times of your life. i would venture that your recent break up with your ex probably had something to do with the fact that you were so open to this new girl, giving her time and even a second chance of sorts. i hope the whole of these experiences are something that you can grow and learn from in the long run, even if right now they just make you sad, angry or bitter. all feelings are healthy as long as they aren't out of control and you learn from it. I know ive said this before, and I know youve said the same to me... the phone's always there if you ever wanna call and just vent or whatever!
DarkChylde Posted December 19, 2005 Author Posted December 19, 2005 Im already aware of being nice is being the open target. This is one of the reasons why im slowly becoming the worst sexually pig-minded asshole ever yet it kinda scares me at the same time. If I want to I can give women a VERY good reason to litarly despise me. But at the same time im too good ta give them the satisfaction, but sometimes I wonder of how long I can continue that though.
newblackroses Posted December 23, 2005 Posted December 23, 2005 Im already aware of being nice is being the open target. This is one of the reasons why im slowly becoming the worst sexually pig-minded asshole ever yet it kinda scares me at the same time. If I want to I can give women a VERY good reason to litarly despise me. But at the same time im too good ta give them the satisfaction, but sometimes I wonder of how long I can continue that though. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> As far as I know, that girl was just dealing with a big breakup herself. Actually the guy that got her pregnant and then cheated on her. I would guess that you two were going through pretty similar feelings at the time. She most likely opened herself up more then she really ment too, just for the feeling of being close to someone again. I wouldn't think too much of it. She is also probably not wanting to talk to you anymore after realizing her mistake. You said that you only knew her for a couple of months? I would cut my losses instead of getting hurt anymore. If she does not seem to want to talk to you anymore, let her go. And, um, just so you know, she has talked to me about you before. This is not just all my opinion... let her go, trust me on this. She avoids you at cc for a reason, let her. :erm
Riku Namako Posted December 23, 2005 Posted December 23, 2005 uh......ya, k, I'm like, tipsy at the moment, and I'm reading this, and uh.....ahhh, fuck it. I'm the last one to know when anything of this magnitude is going on, eh.....
kellygrrrrrl Posted December 23, 2005 Posted December 23, 2005 What high expectations she had......That's horrible. You know, women ruin guys for other women. You have a prefectly nice guy, good natured, kind hearted, then Man meets woman, woman takes him for everything he has, is mean, plays mind games, breaks his heart and ruins him for other women! he is now tainted, untrusting, & owns baggage......
Onyx Posted December 23, 2005 Posted December 23, 2005 What high expectations she had......That's horrible.You know, women ruin guys for other women. You have a prefectly nice guy, good natured, kind hearted, then Man meets woman, woman takes him for everything he has, is mean, plays mind games, breaks his heart and ruins him for other women! he is now tainted, untrusting, & owns baggage...... <{POST_SNAPBACK}> Oh, trust me, a lot of guys do this to women too. (not referring to this thread, about which I know nothing, just speaking in general). Of course not everyone is like that, but I find there just are not that many good people out there.
DarkChylde Posted December 27, 2005 Author Posted December 27, 2005 As far as I know, that girl was just dealing with a big breakup herself. Actually the guy that got her pregnant and then cheated on her. I would guess that you two were going through pretty similar feelings at the time. She most likely opened herself up more then she really ment too, just for the feeling of being close to someone again. I wouldn't think too much of it. She is also probably not wanting to talk to you anymore after realizing her mistake. You said that you only knew her for a couple of months? I would cut my losses instead of getting hurt anymore. If she does not seem to want to talk to you anymore, let her go. And, um, just so you know, she has talked to me about you before. This is not just all my opinion... let her go, trust me on this. She avoids you at cc for a reason, let her. :erm <{POST_SNAPBACK}> Funny, I didnt mention no names and didnt say anything about pregnacy.......Something smells fishy...... Oh, trust me, a lot of guys do this to women too. (not referring to this thread, about which I know nothing, just speaking in general). Of course not everyone is like that, but I find there just are not that many good people out there. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> your very right. It shows whut comes around goes around.
DarkChylde Posted December 30, 2005 Author Posted December 30, 2005 Past couple days I discovered that this all was nuthing but a lie, not she lied to me, but others as well. There wasnt even no love triangle in the first place either. Im just glad that im over it otherwise it be very upsetting. Newblackrose, I know who you really are. Im just gonna leave it as that.
newblackroses Posted January 2, 2006 Posted January 2, 2006 Past couple days I discovered that this all was nuthing but a lie, not she lied to me, but others as well. There wasnt even no love triangle in the first place either. Im just glad that im over it otherwise it be very upsetting.Newblackrose, I know who you really are. Im just gonna leave it as that. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> I figured you knew who I was, and I really don't care. You think everything was a lie? Whatever, I really don't know where you got that idea. Anyway, why does it matter if you ever told any names or not??? I know who the girl is obviously, and the one thing I never said in that post was that, she really never did mean to hurt anyone. You can be mad at her if you want, but she never used you, and she never did mean to hurt you, it just happened that way. She is a good person, she never lied to anyone, and you should know that. Don't go and make everyone think that she is a bitch. Oh, btw, riku, wtf? You knew about it while it was happening!!! lol.
Head Wreck Posted January 2, 2006 Posted January 2, 2006 sounds as messed up as one of my past ones. its gone, let it go move on. some fuckup just because, no ones to blame. its pointless picking old scars
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