Black Rose

[DarkChylde]

Im tired of being the good guy, sick of being generous, disgusted of the fact naivness grew in me again. I've tried accepting love again but all it did just brought me misery which I have ta spend the rest of my life in, which life sux and I personally wish that it would end. Im only living for the sake of few friends and thats it, if I didnt have them then I would have a good excuse ta slice away at my wrist and watch my misrable life pour down the bath tub drain. I've tried having the best positive outlook on things in life but now it sickens me. Hehe I aint gonna lie, I hate the fact im alive and I have no positive outlook on things in life. If somone or SOMETHING kills me, he/she/it would make me happy (not like I'd feel anything when im dead anyways). Fars whut women goes, I also tried see'ing that gender doesnt matter, but whut I've been through of all my ex's, now im noticing the line, usually whut most men do ta others is whut women has done to me, im grown tired of being there fucking victims, actually im tired of being the victim to everything period, I really need to stop being nice and generous and show em whut a true asshole a man can really be......hehehe....hehe.....mwahaha.....Actually, im really not a man, MWAHAHAHAHA!!! *crackles*

*The show is brought to you by, FAAAAYYYYGOOOO!!! (everybody sing!!!) Send yo momma straight up to the store, tell that bitch to bring home a faygo*

Like the movie may, I can kill most of my ex's and steal each diffrent body part's, some thread and a needle I can sue up the "perfect women" and whut would be so perfect is the fact SHES FUCKING DEAD!!! Alive ones are too much for me anyways, bitch wine too much and cause such pointless fuckin drama. I've been somewhut the necrophyl type anyways. I dont need anyone/anything except for few of my left friends and muh dead future dollie. All the fazes in my life are all the pedals that has fallen into the burning depths and burned to ash's.

Who am I kidding, I have a nasty habit of being too kind and still the respectful type guy, looks like im still gonna be dumb enough ta fall for another bitch and her games, unless if I can rid these emotions somehow. I guess the only thing that makes me a little specail than anything is the fact of my ability to see/sence spirits from those who died and lost ones from the spirit world. Hehe shit if I had the ability to haunt the whole world and fuck with peoples head I'd be a happy camper. Im becoming the monster that can possibly be a threat to humanity, but probaly not. *sigh* that would be so nice though.

Aight I think I've let out enough now, im gonna go take a shower and get ready for cc tonight.

[torn asunder]

pm me if ya wanna talk, man...

[soothsayer]

Im tired of being the good guy, sick of being generous, disgusted of the fact naivness grew in me again. I've tried accepting love again but all it did just brought me misery which I have ta spend the rest of my life in, which life sux and I personally wish that it would end. Im only living for the sake of few friends and thats it, if I didnt have them then I would have a good excuse ta slice away at my wrist and watch my misrable life pour down the bath tub drain. I've tried having the best positive outlook on things in life but now it sickens me. Hehe I aint gonna lie, I hate the fact im alive and I have no positive outlook on things in life. If somone or SOMETHING kills me, he/she/it would make me happy (not like I'd feel anything when im dead anyways). Fars whut women goes, I also tried see'ing that gender doesnt matter, but whut I've been through of all my ex's, now im noticing the line, usually whut most men do ta others is whut women has done to me, im grown tired of being there fucking victims, actually im tired of being the victim to everything period, I really need to stop being nice and generous and show em whut a true asshole a man can really be......hehehe....hehe.....mwahaha.....Actually, im really not a man, MWAHAHAHAHA!!! *crackles*

*The show is brought to you by, FAAAAYYYYGOOOO!!! (everybody sing!!!) Send yo momma straight up to the store, tell that bitch to bring home a faygo*

Like the movie may, I can kill most of my ex's and steal each diffrent body part's, some thread and a needle I can sue up the "perfect women" and whut would be so perfect is the fact SHES FUCKING DEAD!!! Alive ones are too much for me anyways, bitch wine too much and cause such pointless fuckin drama. I've been somewhut the necrophyl type anyways. I dont need anyone/anything except for few of my left friends and muh dead future dollie. All the fazes in my life are all the pedals that has fallen into the burning depths and burned to ash's.

Who am I kidding, I have a nasty habit of being too kind and still the respectful type guy, looks like im still gonna be dumb enough ta fall for another bitch and her games, unless if I can rid these emotions somehow. I guess the only thing that makes me a little specail than anything is the fact of my ability to see/sence spirits from those who died and lost ones from the spirit world. Hehe shit if I had the ability to haunt the whole world and fuck with peoples head I'd be a happy camper. Im becoming the monster that can possibly be a threat to humanity, but probaly not. *sigh* that would be so nice though.

Aight I think I've let out enough now, im gonna go take a shower and get ready for cc tonight.

<{POST_SNAPBACK}>

I know I don'tknow you but don't let some stupid bitch get the best of you. My last gf was a total self absorbed bitch and several times it almost got the best of me but I got past her stupid lies and b.s. head games and you can too. It may seem like the impossible but it will be better. Just don't doing anything to hurt yourself, if anything just break something usless to get out the anger. Your friends and family need you.

[DarkChylde]

pm me if ya wanna talk, man...

<{POST_SNAPBACK}>

Wow how long has it been since we talked? Gawd its been so forever, miss see'ing you around man.

[bean]

I wish I would have known you were feeling so down...I would have made it up to CC and we could have talked and I could have shared my drinks with you...as I have told you before, there is a lot of crap in this world that you have to sift through before you find the gold. Don't let a few bad experiences get you down - just realize that you are so much better than that and above all the bullshit. You know I'm always here for you if you need to talk...hope things get better...

[Homicidalheathen]

The pedals fell of your bike? Sorry, I am not drunk so I noticed a spelling error. Heh.

I guess I could say I feel bad for you but not knowing the whole story I feel I should not comment except that......

I am kinda old fashioned and do believe there is someone out there for everyone.

You won't find her being so down though. Well, then again....you might.......

[DarkChylde]

Yes I've realised the error afterwards, petals I should say.

This is not about just over one bitch just basicaly things in life general.

[DarkChylde]

I know I don'tknow you but don't let some stupid bitch get the best of you. My last gf was a total self absorbed bitch and several times it almost got the best of me but I got past her stupid lies and b.s. head games and you can too. It may seem like the impossible but it will be better. Just don't doing anything to hurt yourself, if anything just break something usless to get out the anger. Your friends and family need you.

<{POST_SNAPBACK}>

Trust me, I already know all of this. Of course not trying to neglate your advise er anything. I just get the feel to say some things, thats all. Like sometimes I need a certain place ta act totally psycho in, sounds nuts but it sure helps me.

[Onyx]

I have felt this way at times. God, just change the names in your story and some of that is me for sure.

Here's the thing - I don't think you have to turn into an asshole, but as far as being too nice and being taken advantage of - yeah, it is possible to attract people into your life that will take advantage of you.

I think it happens to generous people way too much.

I think the solution sometimes is just taking care of YOU for awhile. Be selfish and be self centered for awhile because it's so true that you can't give anything to others if you yourself are empty.

It sounds like you are running on empty.

I really believe there are good people out there, but they are hard as hell to find.

You're still a cute young pup! It just might be too soon to settle down with a life partner until you date a few more to see just what kind of person you click with. Try to have some fun, eh?

[Steven]

Generosity is a wonderful thing.

And badly needed.

But wisdom needs to be the pool you draw from.

[Brenda Starrr]

What Steven said.....

[DarkChylde]

Like I've said before, I have already known these things. I just simply choose to have a dark outlook on life and letting the darkness consume my blood, im just working on becoming back the way I use to be a couple years ago. The only ounce of care im still gonna have in me is for my few friends I got these days and thats it, for the rest of the world it can burn for all I care.

Friends like Morbid Suicide, Just Dave, Manic Queen and the others......I luv you guys and you all are the reason of my existence. I've suffered for 20 years and I'll suffer another 20 just for you guys.