What are you feeling?

[GothicRavenGoddess (3)]

i just found an e-mail from him in my aim mail box... apparently its over... he apparently found someone else...

i don't know if its a lie or what...

i hope he's happy... im dead now...

well, not litterally...

that's what i get for investing my heart...

:\

[Scales]

GRG: That sucks about your break-up, hope you get feeling better.

Contemplative. Like I'm quitting anti-depressants for good and sticking with counseling. I'm on the second day of paxil withdrawal dealing with dizzy spells/brain shocks. I have a couple more days till the half life completely wears off, then within less then fourteen days the withdrawal should wear off. Medication helped me get a G.E.D. but it's outlived it's usefulness.

[GothicRavenGoddess (3)]

i feel like i need to make a few phone calls.

the details of which i will not say...

but yeah...

a phone call....

[Miranda]

<--- see that?

<--- yeah that over there

<--- yeah, that's how I feel....I don't know what's going on. don't know if he even wants to talk to me anymore...

lost, alone, confused, but most of all...

<--- that...

*hugs*

[GothicRavenGoddess (3)]

thanks, but i am no longer lost, or alone...

lonely, yes.. not alone..

i am angry now..

very angry..

like incredible hulk angry.... im sure my eyes are red, im so angry...

but thanks, love... thanks DGN. I still love you guys, and gals, if nothing else.

and it looks like i won't be leaving MI any time soon. so you guys are stuck w/ me...

i don't want to be anywhere near SC for a long long while...

if i go there, i will surely do something stupid...

oh yeah.. blood flow, to feed my empty soul

barbequed flesh to feed my empty stomach

oh yeah, i can be one sick fuck, believe me!

ha!

no one has ever seen this side of me...

but he borught it out... its his fault..

because of the three folds law, i didn't want to say this... but i wish he'd die a slow painful death, and i want HER to go first so he will know what its like to lose "his heart"

oh yeah, i fucking went there...

yes i did, indeed.

hehehe

[ManicQueen]

I feel like I should be sleeping right now but I'm being told to make breakfast.. blah!!

[Bernadette]

Åbsolutely nothing.

[Rayne]

5 year olds get up wayyyy too early when you have a headache.

[phee]

Like today is going to be......

[Pandora]

Like today is going to be......

Totally Awesome!

[hunhee]

Miffed.. :/

[Rayne]

Really frustrated with this motion filing issue ..... grrrr.

[Pandora]

Really frustrated with this motion filing issue ..... grrrr.

Like I wish I was a great lawyer so I could help Rayne kick her ex's rear into total submission.

[Msterbeau]

Like I wish I was a great lawyer so I could help Rayne kick her ex's rear into total submission.

It would be better if you were a great sniper.

[Rayne]

If someone could FIND him, that would be adequate ..... for now .....

[Pandora]

It would be better if you were a great sniper.

Well my man Is a hunter (but the good kind, honors his kills, uses all parts of the animal) and he will be teaching me how to shoot a rifle. Muahahahahahaha!

Maybe a beebee gun. Hey if Dick Cheney can shoot people in the face and get off scot-free why can't I??

[phee]

Well my man Is a hunter (but the good kind, honors his kills, uses all parts of the animal) and he will be teaching me how to shoot a rifle. Muahahahahahaha!

Maybe a beebee gun. Hey if Dick Cheney can shoot people in the face and get off scot-free why can't I??

*Ponders* A DGN assassins guild.... hmmmm

[hunhee]

*Ponders* A DGN assassins guild.... hmmmm

First rule of the DGN Assassins Guild.. we DON'T talk about the DGN Assassins Guild..

oh wait.. *ponders*

[the eternal]

i just found an e-mail from him in my aim mail box... apparently its over... he apparently found someone else...

I don't know if its a lie or what...

I hope he's happy... I'm dead now...

well, not literally...

that's what I get for investing my heart...

:\

OK, here's the thing. You're really angry right now.

That's a good thing.

You don't want to keep it bottled up inside.

Just don't let it lead you to something self-destructive

(drinking too much, cutting yourself, having sex with ugly, creepy, middle-aged men with sword fetishes)

That's letting your ex win.

You need to acknowledge that behind that rage, this breakup may be causing self-doubt.

Then you need to erase that doubt and realize:

you did nothing wrong, and he was just too weak of a man to be able to wait for you.

Not too much of an asshole,

or whatever else you're thinking (although those may apply too)

but in the end he didn't possess the strength that you showed to be committed and faithful,

even though you were many states away

And you don't need nor want want someone who is that weak,

to be by your side for eternity.

This was a gift.

Recognize that.

You erased future pain with him, by finding this out now.

He should be thanked for at least doing this now, instead of waiting to show you this.

Many of us spent years in relationships that still cause us pain, even though they have ended.

And you avoided that by not tying the knot with this emotional 88 lb wisp of a man.

But then, when you realize that is nothing you did wrong,

but rather his own inadequacies,

the anger will still be there, possibly even stronger.

(Dammit, why the hell couldn't he have told you this months ago, right?)

And you will need a healthy outlet to channel that rage.

I'M HERE TO HELP

___----------------------------------------------------------___

I have an ex.

She lives nearby, so you wouldn't have to leave MI.

Unleashing your rage on her would give you a proper way to channel your anger,

while doing something positive for the community.

PM me for details.

(I would offer Rayne's ex up as a bonus, but so far Garmin hasn't created a GPS to locate "crazy" )

If someone could FIND him, that would be adequate ..... for now .....

That's exactly what I was going to say. (I even clicked the quote tag on Pandora's post)

Edited for spell check and punctuation

[phee]

I feel the presence of The Eternal (so poetic I know)

[hunhee]

Just don't let it lead you to something self-destructive

(drinking too much, cutting yourself, having sex with ugly, creepy, middle-aged men with sword fetishes)

DAMMIT!! Where was this advice TWO months ago??? Now I need to kick out the 30 creepy middle aged men with sword fetishes.. *frusterated*

[Pandora]

I have an ex.

She lives nearby, so you wouldn't have to leave MI.

Unleashing your rage on her would give you a proper way to channel your anger,

while doing something positive for the community.

PM me for details.

(I would offer Rayne's ex up as a bonus, but so far Garmin hasn't created a GPS to locate "crazy" )

That's exactly what I was going to say. (I even clicked the quote tag on Pandora's post)

Edited for spell check and punctuation

Hahahahahaha, something positive for the community. There are plenty of legal channels to make someone's life miserable.

I never understood crazy ex's. If it's done, then it's done and let it go for pete's sake.

People suck sometimes, I'm sorry for all of you dealing with sucky people today. But at least you have your life partners.

And GRG, you'll find yours when the time is right. Grieve, mourn, but not too long, the guy is obviously a chump when it comes down to it and you deserve a Lot better. I had to wait til I was ready to find my love, but miracle of miracles I did. You will too.

[GothicRavenGoddess (3)]

OK, here's the thing. You're really angry right now.

That's a good thing.

You don't want to keep it bottled up inside.

Just don't let it lead you to something self-destructive

(drinking too much, cutting yourself, having sex with ugly, creepy, middle-aged men with sword fetishes)

That's letting your ex win.

You need to acknowledge that behind that rage, this breakup may be causing self-doubt.

Then you need to erase that doubt and realize:

you did nothing wrong, and he was just too weak of a man to be able to wait for you.

Not too much of an asshole,

or whatever else you're thinking (although those may apply too)

but in the end he didn't possess the strength that you showed to be committed and faithful,

even though you were many states away

And you don't need nor want want someone who is that weak,

to be by your side for eternity.

This was a gift.

Recognize that.

You erased future pain with him, by finding this out now.

He should be thanked for at least doing this now, instead of waiting to show you this.

Many of us spent years in relationships that still causes us pain even though it has ended.

And you avoided that by not tying the knot with this emotional 88 lb wisp of a man.

But then, when you realize that is nothing you did, but rather his own inadequacies,

the anger will still be here, possibly even stronger.

(Dammit, why the hell couldn't he have told you this months ago, right?)

And you will need a healthy outlet to channel that rage.

I'M HERE TO HELP

___----------------------------------------------------------___

I have an ex.

She lives nearby, so you wouldn't have to leave MI.

Unleashing your rage on her would give you a proper way to channel your anger,

while doing something positive for the community.

PM me for details.

(I would offer Rayne's ex up as a bonus, but so far Garmin hasn't created a GPS to locate "crazy" )

That's exactly what I was going to say. (I even clicked the quote tag on Pandora's post)

Edited for spell check and punctuation

awww.. sweetie..

i have connections... connecting some dots, on some ppl... but shhhhh

oh, and i don't doubt myself. I'm fine as hell, and good in bed, and smart. I may be a bigge girl, but i carry myself well. I am done letting peeps walk all over me. I am done w/ getting hurt. I will get what I want out of life, and it will be on MY turms, no one else's... he may have sent his bitch whore to send me a back off e-mail.. but what he did to me, he will do to her. he doesn't get another change w/ me. I don't care if he crawls all the way here.... I am done w/ mind games..

your post made me giggle, sweetie.

and to all those other's who are in love/getting married/are married: i am happy for you that not all ppl are bad apples.... I am happy for everyone who is successful in finding love!

[Msterbeau]

I feel like some people's ex's should fall off the face of the earth.

[Ice Queen (1)]

really annoyed