What are you feeling?

[odims_sphere]

krazy! Why when I work late does it have to be wicked busy and I have no drivers and things are gonna be late and this really sucks!!!!!!!!!!

[phee]

krazy! Why when I work late does it have to be wicked busy and I have no drivers and things are gonna be late and this really sucks!!!!!!!!!!

I feel the Odims needs to get laid.... wait that's me....

[odims_sphere]

I feel the Odims needs to get laid.... wait that's me....

Me too... How you doin?

[SuZQZ]

Like it's time to get the pj's on and get comfy

[phee]

I think we should invade!

[saechalyn]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MY EYES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[odims_sphere]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MY EYES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shhh... Just watch!

[saechalyn]

Shhh... Just watch!

Nooooooooooooo! No more!

[Msterbeau]

ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!

[Jadis]

Tired. I need to sleep.

[freydis]

It's kinda chilly here.....

[xbittergracex]

I feel really messed up right now.

I loved a guy for 9 years. I shouldn't have. We were so awful to each other. When we were together, half the time I loved him and half the time I wanted him to go away, and when he was gone, I Missed him so bad. We were on and off, and usually he only came to me when something was going wrong in his life. When someone broke his heart, or when he got in trouble, or when he had no one else. And he was always depressed, and I used to cry and beg him to let me help him, and let me be there for him, but he would say horrible things and push me away.

He died today. Haven't found out how, but I'm 90% sure he killed himself. We haven't talked in a year.

So I've been a wreck all night, and I reached out to my mom, who said "Oh GOD, you didn't even talk to him anymore." and I reached out to a couple friends who basically said I couldn't be sad because he was a jerk the last time we spoke.

Maybe thier right, but it doesn't change the fact that I'm sick, and feel more sadness than I can bear.

I feel....like a piece of me and my life died today. And everyone is telling me I can't.

[Destroit]

I feel really messed up right now.

I loved a guy for 9 years. I shouldn't have. We were so awful to each other. When we were together, half the time I loved him and half the time I wanted him to go away, and when he was gone, I Missed him so bad. We were on and off, and usually he only came to me when something was going wrong in his life. When someone broke his heart, or when he got in trouble, or when he had no one else. And he was always depressed, and I used to cry and beg him to let me help him, and let me be there for him, but he would say horrible things and push me away.

He died today. Haven't found out how, but I'm 90% sure he killed himself. We haven't talked in a year.

So I've been a wreck all night, and I reached out to my mom, who said "Oh GOD, you didn't even talk to him anymore." and I reached out to a couple friends who basically said I couldn't be sad because he was a jerk the last time we spoke.

Maybe thier right, but it doesn't change the fact that I'm sick, and feel more sadness than I can bear.

I feel....like a piece of me and my life died today. And everyone is telling me I can't.

Awww you poor thing, if your family and friends can't see what you're going through then they're the ones who are insensitive. Even if your friend/boyfriend was a jerk sometimes, it still affects you when they pass and you still miss them and that's normal. My ex was a total loser and a coke head and I fucking hated him most the time (he was also my first), but I do know that if he died, even at this point where we hardly speak now and I probably can't stand him more than ever, I'd be overwhelmingly sad. Then the "what ifs" come in for everyone the "what if I could have helped?" but let me tell you darling, some people are unreachable. It's very sad, it's a horrible truth of life, but it seems that if someone has their mind set out for their own self-destruction, not even those who are closest can stop the upcoming "train wreck" so to speak, just know that it was his choice, and that yes you should mourn him, but never should you feel guilt for what happened. If your friends and family don't understand, just know your DGN family is here for ya, I hope you get through the pain. It will take quite sometime, but time heals everything, and eventually you will be able to remember him and care for him.

[phee]

I feel trampled by the morning...

[Destroit]

I feel trampled by the morning...

I feel ya. I've been up since 4:30 taking care of Raven because I accidentally gave him my plague, and the poor guy has to work in like a half hour

Lol and when I logged on DGN at the mysterious time of 5:08 I was surprised that there were actually two other people online.

[Msterbeau]

Excitedly groggy.

[phee]

Kind of like a Gym bag in a slinky factory surrounded by cellphones

[freydis]

Awake..... and like i must have snored last night, cause i'm a little hoarse.

[phee]

Awake..... and like i must have snored last night, cause i'm a little hoarse.

[freydis]

Heh.... how did i know i'd get this response from you? heheheh.....

[pharoh]

Happy that I have changed and some things are still just the same

[freydis]

I feel like i need a shower.

[xbittergracex]

Sad that my current friends and family don't understand whats going on.

but very very happy and appreciative at my new friends here who have been so supportive. Thank you so much.

[freydis]

A bit better now. I can breathe!

[xbittergracex]

I feel really messed up right now.

I loved a guy for 9 years. I shouldn't have. We were so awful to each other. When we were together, half the time I loved him and half the time I wanted him to go away, and when he was gone, I Missed him so bad. We were on and off, and usually he only came to me when something was going wrong in his life. When someone broke his heart, or when he got in trouble, or when he had no one else. And he was always depressed, and I used to cry and beg him to let me help him, and let me be there for him, but he would say horrible things and push me away.

He died today. Haven't found out how, but I'm 90% sure he killed himself. We haven't talked in a year.

So I've been a wreck all night, and I reached out to my mom, who said "Oh GOD, you didn't even talk to him anymore." and I reached out to a couple friends who basically said I couldn't be sad because he was a jerk the last time we spoke.

Maybe thier right, but it doesn't change the fact that I'm sick, and feel more sadness than I can bear.

I feel....like a piece of me and my life died today. And everyone is telling me I can't.

It is official. He hung himself. Services were already held.