What are you feeling?

[creatureofthenyte]

Content, yet also sorry for Candy's loss.

[Scales]

Terrible, excellent, inclined to produce recordings of a musical nature, unable to make up mind, slightly wired, calm. Like I should stop spending so much time inside, get out and do something, but it's cold and even more depressingly gloomy and dark outside, like the weather is some sort of beginning of a Diablo 3 cut-scene. Like engineering foot-holders and handle bars to the roof of my car and going surfing with a good friend driving, but not enough ambition or insanity to do it. Like going "car-surfing" in a trenchcoat on top of a floor machine at a local franchise. Like legally buying the window to a random store in a mall, then orchestrating a scene where my cousin throws me through it, followed by me cursing him out, then uploading it to the internet. Chaotic, bland, mindlessly spewing out drivel, like a pile of salt on a dirty table at Denny's during 4 AM in the morning.

[SuZQZ]

A little anxious and worried. My daughter has massive swollen glands in her neck and arm pits again with no sign of a cause at the moment. Preliminary tests results show nothing, waiting for the extended labs to come back. This kid is dealing with and has dealt with enough health crap already. She deserves a break.

On top of that, my mom is having surgery Wednesday to install a defibrillating pacemaker on her already severly damaged heart. Not a horribly invasive procedure, but her health is far from great and she has a problem handling general anesthesia.

Going to bed now so I can toss and turn and stare at the walls all night. Cheers.

[bean]

Its Febuary. My worst S.A.D month.

Wait. I spelled that wrong. February......what is with this silent r shit???? I hate the english language.

January is my worst S.A.D. month. I had to keep reminding myself over and over again it's just the S.A.D and I don't actually want to take a dirtnap. It sucks.

Like I have a funeral this weekend.

It doesn't hurt anymore to have my grandma gone, mostly because she isn't in pain anymore.

I'm so glad that I have the family I do. It's also nice when other people have your back too.

I'm sorry for your loss *hugs*

A little anxious and worried. My daughter has massive swollen glands in her neck and arm pits again with no sign of a cause at the moment. Preliminary tests results show nothing, waiting for the extended labs to come back. This kid is dealing with and has dealt with enough health crap already. She deserves a break.

On top of that, my mom is having surgery Wednesday to install a defibrillating pacemaker on her already severly damaged heart. Not a horribly invasive procedure, but her health is far from great and she has a problem handling general anesthesia.

Going to bed now so I can toss and turn and stare at the walls all night. Cheers.

I hope your daughter and mother will be ok. *hugs*

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I feel out of control, blah, like I don't want to go to work tomorrow and I need to go to bed.

[freydis]

Tired.

And my guts feel icky.

[Destroit]

I think I still have a fever.

[CandyQuackenbush]

Rushed.

[Rayne]

That with this payment this month, I'll owe less than $20k on my car. Yay!!!

And that I can't wait to get to the doctor today.

And annoyed that school hasn't graded my semester exam yet. I want to see how I did!!!

[freydis]

very, very ITCHY.

damn allergies..... my hands are beet red and swollen, and i have blotchy hives all over my face. :( And i'm stuck at work....

[the eternal]

Like psycho'll be away, so I'll be hitting CC on Saturday.

Like I'm watching my checking account dwindle to zero, and the wedding'll be just me and her,

featuring a week-old 50 yr anniversary Smurfs layer cake that Meijers couldn't sell, eaten at her kitchen table,

with DJ Eternal playing Wagner and Ogre on the $80 Sony boombox.

Like I can be too pushy sometimes.

Like I need to take some happy pills and get back to work.

Like the weather's shitty outside, and all I really want to do is cuddle up by the fire with her at home,

instead of blowing off work 100 miles away.

[hunhee]

Like psycho'll be away, so I'll be hitting CC on Saturday.

Like I'm watching my checking account dwindle to zero, and the wedding'll be just me and her,

featuring a week-old 50 yr anniversary Smurfs layer cake that Meijers couldn't sell, eaten at her kitchen table,

with DJ Eternal playing Wagner and Ogre on the $80 Sony boombox.

Hey! I may be going to CC, I didn't think I was THAT psycho..*giggles*

And umm.. that actually sounds like my dream fucking wedding, cept the DJ Eternal part, instead I got a damn party, that I didn't plan cause I couldn't care less. I just wanted a nice honeymoon. Unfortunately the price of the honeymoon was the party.

Thanks mom!!!

I feel tired..

[the eternal]

Don't discount DJ Eternal. He's got mad skillz on the auto-reverse cassette recorder, yo.

As long as you be marryin another goth brutha, I be kickin it oldskool in your grill with the Yu-Gung all up in your hizzou!

Futter Mein Ego! Futter Mein Ego! Futter Mein Ego!

[TygerLili]

Tired! And kind of yucky.

[odims_sphere]

I feel I need a job

[LuluVox]

Vulnerable and nervous, and a just a smidge stupid.

[freydis]

still itchy. :(

[Marmee_Noir]

A bit of fear... Things seem to be going way to good to be true.. Crosses fingers, knocks on wood and prays to God.. Hehehehe..

[Hellion]

Stressed from the,"LONG" ride home from work.

[ManicQueen]

Sick from the cereal.

[predaking]

alone and annoyed, but strangly happy

[bean]

Like psycho'll be away, so I'll be hitting CC on Saturday.

Like I'm watching my checking account dwindle to zero, and the wedding'll be just me and her,

featuring a week-old 50 yr anniversary Smurfs layer cake that Meijers couldn't sell, eaten at her kitchen table,

with DJ Eternal playing Wagner and Ogre on the $80 Sony boombox.

Like I can be too pushy sometimes.

Like I need to take some happy pills and get back to work.

Like the weather's shitty outside, and all I really want to do is cuddle up by the fire with her at home,

instead of blowing off work 100 miles away.

It'll be a nice vacation from Queen Psycho of Bitchland, no?

Even if we got married in our backyard with all our friends and loved ones there doing a potluck or something, I'd be happy, because I'd be married to you! That's not to say that I don't want what we are planning..I'm just saying that if that's all we can afford, it's ok

you may all vomit now

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I'm feeling like my usual 10-15 minute drive home from work took 40 minutes, complete with a 360 degree spin out (how I didn't get hit or hit anyone is beyond me). Weeee! I could bitch about the snow, but it really won't change things so maybe I'll go make a snow angel outside and look like a crazy person.

[GothicRavenGoddess (3)]

a little worried about going back to SC. I'm not sure what the future will bring as far as that goes, cuz I will be rooming with my Grandmother. I will be able to see my boyfriend -finally-, but I haven't seen the guy in a couple of years. (no we haven't been dating that long, we just started dating in December). Moving again is kinda scary. In May, it will be a year that I have been here. Seems so long ago. I'm just worried that my family won't accept me as readily as they say they are. "you can come home, the door is always open." and i'm like were you there, the last time? weren't you trying to tap as much money out of me as you possibly could, so that I'd be "contributing"? Gawd... anyways... I am happy, otherwise. I love you guys, and will miss CC, and seing you in person, very much. Don't worry, I will be on here as often as possible, and passing out DGN cards, and what not... lol like I said:

worried, happy, excited, and sad.

[Homicidalheathen]

Like crap......jays phone is turned off.......people are jerks.......i drove in the snow all day. Crap.

[ManicQueen]

on edge

anxious

stressed

overwhelmed

[Destroit]

Blah. I guess I'm tired.